Find my way back to you |calum hood|

T H I R T Y F O U R

Ariana's pov

I was lying in my bed when I heard the door open, "Who's there?" I yelled, wondering who could have got the key to my room, the only person who had a key to my room was David and myself, and David wouldn't come in during the night.

"It's Calum" Calum said, I grumbled profanities under my breath, "What do you want?" I asked, "I brought Kerry to tell you something" he said, "And this couldn't have waited until tomorrow" I said, "Its important, tell her Kerry" Calum said, "I lied about Calum and I" Kerry said, chewing on some gum loudly, "I bet you paid her to say that or something Calum, I'm not stupid" I said, "I told you she wouldn't believe me" Kerry said leaving, "Ari please believe me, what reason do you have not to believe me? What have I ever done to make you not trust me?" Calum asked coming and sitting next to me on my bed.

"What have I done to actually make you trust someone else's word over mine?" Calum asked calmly, "I don't know" I said sitting up, "I haven't done anything to make you not trust me, so why don't you?" he asked, "Because there's so much proof Calum" I said, "But isn't my word the only proof you really need?" he asked, "Not really" I said, "Ari I didn't cheat on you, and no matter what it takes I will prove it to you" he said, "I want to believe you Calum, but I just can't" I said, "Just believe me Ari, you know I love you, I love you so much, much more than I've ever loved anyone else, why won't you trust me?" he pleaded.

"I can't Calum, not this time" I said shaking my head, "Ill always love you Ari, and I know that someday you'll be mine again" he said as he stood up and walked out of the room, "I love you too" I whispered as I let the tears fall down my face.

I couldn't sleep, I was kept awake by my thoughts.

Did I believe Calum?

Why shouldn't I believe him?

He hasn't gave me any reasons not to trust him?

Did I want to risk getting hurt again?

I couldn't take this anymore.

My thoughts were killing me.

All these unanswered questions swirling around my head.

I knew one thing for sure though.

I loved Calum, and I always would.

And no matter what he done, I would always forgive him someday.

But cheating can't be forgiven so easily.

I pulled my phone out and called tori, she answered within a few seconds, "Ariana? What's wrong?" she asked sounding worried, "Tori I don't know what to do" I said, "What do you mean?" she asked.

I proceeded to tell her everything about what Calum said, how I felt and about how confused I was on what to do.

"Well the first question that needs answered is, do you believe him?" tori asked, "I don't know tori, I don't have any reasons not to believe him, but there's so much proof" I said, "There's not so much proof Ariana, there's like three pictures of them, one of them hugging, one of them talking and the other of them standing next to each other, and then there's the Kerry girl tweeting about how she doesn't regret making him cheat on you, that's not proof, that's a girl making up a stupid lie to get attention" tori said, "So you don't think he cheated on me?" I asked, "Personally no, I don't think he would do that to you, but obviously it's your life, your decision whether you trust him or not" she said.

I sighed loudly, "I do believe him tori, I trust him so much, I just don't know if I can be put through the pain of getting hurt again" I said, "Think about it this way, how much worse is the pain of not being with him at all, to the pain of you two arguing and getting back together after a few days, a week tops, everyone in the whole entire 5sos or Ariana fandom know that you two are going to be together forever, you just argue and fall out a lot, but you'll always find your way back to each other" tori said, "I guess you're right, I'm going to go apologise to him right now for not believing him" I said, "But Ariana, what if he actually did cheat on you?" tori asked.

I thought about it, "Then I guess I'll just have to move on and forget about it, I love him tori, and whatever mistakes we both make, we both forgive each other all the time, no matter how bad they are" I said, "You go girl, love you! I'll see you when you're back home" she said as we hung up.

I stood up and walked out of my room, not caring that I was only wearing tiny shorts and a top, I walked to the room Calum was sharing with Luke and knocked on the door, Calum answered, his eyes red and puffy, I was surprised he was still awake, it was like 3 in the morning.

I didn't say anything, I just pulled him into a hug, hugging him tighter than ever, "Im so sorry for not trusting you cal" I whispered, "What changed your mind?" he asked, "Nothing, just a call to tori made me realise that you'll always be mine and ill always be yours, no matter what mistakes we make, or what we do, we'll always forgive each other in the end, we'll always find our way back to each other" I said, Calum pressed his lips to mine and kissed me passionately and hungrily, I kissed back with just as much hunger and passion as he did.

I pulled back and Calum rested his forehead against mine, "I honestly never cheated on you Ari, never in my life would I cheat, I know I've hurt you a lot before, and I'm not going to lie, i'll probably do it again, you'll hurt me, we'll both hurt each other, but one thing I would never do is cheat" Calum said, "I don't want to talk about that anymore, lets just move on from it" I said smiling as I kissed him again.

"Lets go back to your room so we can cuddle, I need to cuddle you again, I missed you so much" Calum said, "I know, lets go" I said as we both got into my room and cuddled into each other.

This is the way everything should always be, me pressed against Calum, his arms around my waist, and both of us smiling as we slept in each others arms.