Love Trouble

Prologue

Prologue

“I’m sorry.”

She never thought those words could actually hurt physically, emotionally, and mentally. Why would this person use them as a weapon to get what he wants? Wasn’t that cruel? Especially coming from him, from the only person she cared about outside her family, the boy she thought she’ll be spending her whole life with.

Hindi niya napigilan ang pagpatak ng luha niya kaya yumuko siya. No, she will not let him see how much he was hurting her right now. Pinalis niya ng isang kamay ang basa niyang pisngi saka ito tiningnan sa mata.

Nakita niyang nag-aalala ito. His eyes were full of sorrow and regret. What for? Was he regretting what he was doing right now? Or was he regretting he had to do this to her?

“Bakit? Pumiyok pa yata ang boses niya. But it doesn’t matter. Kailangan niyang malaman kung bakit nito iyon ginawa. Because honestly, she was very confused right now. Wala kasi siyang matandaang nag-away sila. Hindi rin sila nagkakatampuhan. As in never. Kaya nga naiinggit sa kanya ang ibang mga kaklase niya kasi napaka-problem free dawn g relationship nila ni Jethro. Kahit konting argument, wala. So what was the problem? Where was the problem? Why? Nong isang araw lang, nag-uusap sila. And everything was fine.

Medyo nag-alinlangan pa itong sagutin ang simpleng tanong niya. Then after a while, he sighed. “It’s not the same anymore.”

What?!!

Isa lang ang tumatakbo sa isipan niya ngayon. Ang gulpihin ang lalaking ito hanggang sa hindi na ito makilala ng mga tao pati mga kaibigan at pamilya nito. Kaya lang, hindi naman siya bayolenteng tao kaya hanggang isipan lang niya iyon.

Sinasabi ba nito na hindi na siya kagaya ng dati? Na nagbago na siya? Palusot lang banito iyon para kumalas sa kanya?

“It’s not you, Bri. It’s about us.” Sabi nito nang hindi siya nagsalita. “We changed. Hindi na tayo tulad ng dati. Pati nararamdaman ko…” no, don’t say them. “…nagbago na rin.”

Ouch! Ang sakit non.

Did he have to say them?

Of course. She asked him so he gave her an answer.

And she cannot believe he was doing this in school. Puwede naming mag-usap sila after school diba? Bakit ngayon pa kung kelan final exam nila?

“Jeth, may iba ba?”

Ewan niya kung bakit niya nasabi iyon. She just said them without thinking. But the way he straightened his back and laced his fingers together, she guessed she nailed the right question to ask.

Pero bago pa ito makasagot, may pakiramdam na siya na hindi niya magugustuhan ang lalabas sa bibig niyo.

“Wala.”

Oh, no. No. He just did not do that.

Sa loob ng isang taong relasyon nila ni Jeth, ni minsan ay hindi ito nagsinungaling sa kanya. But it was all different now.

Sa sobrabg galit at sakit na pumuno sa dibdib niya, hindi niya napigilan ang sarili niya.

She slapped him hard on the face.

Nagulat pa ito sa ginawa niya. Hindi kasi siya bayolenteng tao, diba? Pero gaya nga ng sinabi niya, it was different now. Kaya pasensyahan na lang. dahil sa lahat ng ayaw niya ay iyong nagsisinungaling sa harap ng mukha niya.

“Go to hell.”

Tumalikod na siya at iniwan itong namumula pa rin ang pisngi.

She just left the boy she loved after hurting him. Pero wala iyon sa sakit na nararamdaman niya ngayon. Buti lang iyon sa kanya. He could even thank her because she was not the one who was breaking up and he was not the one whose heart was breaking into pieces.

How could he do this to her? To them? Hindi na ba ito masaya sa kanya?

Well, she guessed not. Kaya nga nakahanap na ito ngiba diba?

Bakit di man lang niya iyon napansin?

Tanga na ba siya?

Tama. Baka naging tanga na nga siya.

Kaya nga sa kabila ng galit niya kay Jethro dahil sa ginawa nito, at sa sakit nararamdaman niya, nandon pa rin ang pagmamahal niya para rito. 

Did she deserve this? Maybe. Yes. No.

*Sniff*

It was a cruel, cruel world.