Hazel
We sat and watched the movie, I ended up sitting with Remington and he held onto me when the part with the spiders came on.
I couldn't focus on the movie though, I told Remington what happened by typing it down on my notes and showing him, he then held me tighter, not because of the spiders but because he knew I was upset.
The movie ended and I stood up, "noo come backkk I was comfyyy " Remington whined as he held out his arms in a weak attempt to grab me .
"I'm gonna go shower " I laughed and walked away to get stuff from my bunk.
⚠️HERES YOUR WARNING ⚠️
I went to go turn on the taps in the shower and got un dressed, I see why he didn't want me, he probably pretended to care about me.
I mean look at me! I'm so ugly and disgusting! She's probably some beautiful supermodel that has everything I don't; curves not bones, smooth skin not breakouts, she's probably really open too.
Ugh fuck! Why can't I look at myself and be happy with it?!
I got into the shower and stood there crying at some point I couldn't tell if some were tears and some were water or not.
I eventually got to the point of pain infliction on myself, I didn't know it would cause pain to more than just me.
