Okay so i know it's been. Awhile but this year or these past couple months have been rough but the only person i can blame is myself because I made choses that i might refer for a very long time and they affect me really bad right now and all i want to do is have it go away forever but i cant because is apart of life because with out getting hurt you will never truly live life and i know it will get better but with time that is all i can ask for is time for me to get myself together and pick up the pieces
So the moral of this updated chapter or whatever you want to call it is for me to tell you if u are having a shit year all i can say give it time I know it might seem like forever but it will get better but i also dont know what you guys are going through but if you do harm yourself at least think of your future because we dont know what will happen in the future we might be dead we might still be in a shit hole or we could be happy and be thankful that you didn't kill yourself i am thankful that i didnt overdose because i thought of my best friend and yes I know we might be friends our hole lives but she helps me for get things that are on my mind and she makes me want to live because i want her to live and she is the most amazing person i have ever met in my life and i love her for being by my side as I am hers and i know some people might not have people like that or they think that they are alone in life but the truth is that there is someone in this world that will or does love you more than anything so think of them before you hurt yourself
