bts members [8th member]

?the mystery pt.2?

Dear Chaeyoung

            I'm sorry, I'm so sorry I couldn't save you when I could've. As soon as that happened I wish I could of moved you or blocked you. Just something
   But I didn't I just stood there like the idiot I was I promise soon or later I will see you and reunite with you I really really wanna hear your voice again and see your smile and play with your hair....but I know that can never happen because we had to shave it off because of the incident that caused you death. I wish I could switch places with you.. I would seriously do anything to have you back. But no...
He has to do that and take you and just left me with you in my arms. Your final good bye was heart breaking...what you said and how you ocean blue eyes closed and never opened again. Oh how Jack missed you.. he still haven't  dated anyone 
We really miss you I miss you a lot but Jack still thinks you can come back I tried telling him but it didn't work we visited  you today and yesterday
And the day before we had to go through your closet at Jacks we cried a lot and looked at how happy you were your smile you black wavy hair you glasses . And how you always tried to tell us not matter how we looked you still loved us no matter what.. I miss you and tomorrow night  me and jack will finally see you from 1 1/2 years without seeing you we finally will yes I know the boys will be devastated but I left them a note all of them and I will lay them out tomorrow night
Same with this one
As I read this and write it
Tears are falling and I can't see properly

The hate dosnt scared me
It's the end of this band
I love them to much to let go
So I'll let go for them and me
I'm sorry this got cut short but I'll finally be happy

As to my boys reading this
I loved you all so so so much and never let that leave you
I'm doing this for us
I'm letting go
I'm finally gonna fly and not in anything mechanical
I'm sorry my time got cut short but I really in joyed this all and I love you all so so so so much

Love Lani

WOOO WHOOO 2 UPSATES YAYAYAYYA
OK SORRY THESE FEW NEXT CHAPTERS WILL BE NOTE THINGS OK AND THERE GONNA BE SAD AND STUFF IM SORRY BUT I LOVE YOU ALL AND I WILL SEE YOU SOON *MMWA* KK BYEBYE