My vision is clouded,
My mind is astounded.
The only time that I can feel relief from my own nightmares is when i forget myself entirely.
I don't know who I am,
where I belong.
Everything I was just a second ago disappears...
and then I'm free.
I am who I want myself to be.
Strong, independent and worthy.
At least I tell myself I am...
Until its all over and my vision starts to come back.
I gasp as I try to stay in my perfect little facade, but I can't hold it back.
I don't want to go back..
I don't want to go back.....
I don't want..................................
Then it hits me.
