The Warmth of your Darkness (COMPLETED)

XXI.

Part 3.

~~ F L A S H B A C K ~~

(The first day that they've met)

Callie's POV

I'm wearing my black hood jacket today with black fiited pants and converse shoes, dala ko din ang backpack kong black and white ang kulay... naisip kong lumabas ng bahay at this hour, 8:00 Pm... naisip kong maglakad pagkalabas ko ng condo ko, it's been 1 month since my mom left me... I still can't believe that I already  lost my Mom, I don't have any memories being with her, why is it so unfair? Sobrang bigat na ng nararamdaman ko ngayon, ni minsan hindi ko naranasan ang maiparamdam sa akin na isa akong special person, ni hindi nga ako sigurado if may nagmahal sa akin. Now that I lost my mom... kakayanin ko pa ba? Magsisimula pa lang ako para makilala sya, makasama sya, makabonding sya... bakit kinuha na sya agad? Bakit ganun? Masama ba akong tao? Ginawa ko naman ang lahat ng utos ni Dad, pero bakit ganun? Eventhough it's very late to be in good terms with my Dad... pero huli na ang lahat para maranasan ko ang pagmamahal nya, na mahalaga din ako at na proud sya sa akin. Pero ang mommy... nawala sya... now I really feel so Alone... maybe this is my destiny, to be alone forever... and I will never ever experience how to be happy.

Nang biglang maring ang cellphone ko... napatingin ako dito and saw Heidi's name.

At first  I was hesitant to answer the call but I just found myself answering her call.

"Hmm." -- bungad ko.

(Thank God!) -- usal nio.

Tahimik lang ako...

(Cal, where have you been?) -- may pag alalang tono nito.

I know she's my doctor but I don't want her being near with me... I feel so confused whenever I'm with her, and I don't know why. And yeah, I misunderstand her actions towards me, she's the only person who really cares for me, I feel so warm when I'm with her. Maybe she's my doctor that's why she's like that towards me.... she's just doing her job. Napabuntong hininga ako sa naisip.

(You should comeback here in Tagaytay.) -- wika nito in serious tone.

"Why?" -- I asked.

(Kailangan natin ituloy yung treatment mo, kung ikaw sumuko na, well, ibahin mo ako Cal... I'm your Doctor, di kita susukuan.) -- seryosong sabi nito.

And there, she said it... She's my doctor.

"Okay, Bukas... pupunta ako." --  walang ganang sagot ko..

(Glad to know. I maybe your Doctor but I teat as my friend Callie. Don't you ever think that you're alone. Alam kong mahirap ang pinnagdadaanan mo ngayon. Nandito lang ako.) -- sinserong sabi nito.

Napalunok ako... she's confusing me. She should stop acting like that towards me.