Seventeen

Season

The november confession
And the December hug
The Janaury bliss
And the February kiss
The March fights
And the April tears
Oh how perfect it was until

Our love was treading on thin ice
Upon the extremities of May and June
The whole caboodle was strewn.
In those July storms,
We fell apart, got lost, walked through pain
But then we surmounted again
Cause I was hoping to see the sun at the end
On your mind was some other duende

Healthy texting friendly talk,
Got disappeared in the early fall.
Holding hands,
Under the bench,
To make feel each other alright
Tight with a clench.
Gentle rubs on each other's thigh,
At the end of the recess,
That hardest goodbye.
The dishes of smiles and happiness
At the cafeteria
Now served eye rolls.
Exchanging hoodies was no more a thing,
To feel each other's warmness,
The blushes at the corridor,
Were now awkward glances.
The August kisses turned to
September misses
The October ignorance made me stronger
For the upcoming Christmases
And now back to November
We are left with grudges

My anxiety makes me conjecture,
Just like these changing months and seasons, you changed too
Why couldn't I change to be perfect for you?
I thought we were the endgame
Your bottled up emotions
Were yet to exclaim.
You, one of the best lesson
But failed to imbue
How to unlove someone
Those breathless nights,
sinking heart
And silent cries
Again I was cold, empty,
Talking about you, is still my hobby
And hence I wish never to end this poem
In the way we did.