Today I promised myself and my loved ones that I would go out to start working.
As expected, I couldn't fulfill them.
Now they are calling me .. messaging me to check if I went to office.
But my guilt doesn't let me attend or reply.
I wonder if I will remain like this forever...
Though nothing is forever.
Just like how good times stays for a short time,
Bad times will end soon too.
But the process is hard to digest.
Today again,
I hurt my left hand.
There are numerous temporary scars and the new ones I inscribed on my skin today.
Somehow scars looks beautiful to me now,
I am wearing them like a proud ornament.
If someone were to see them and ask about them
I would gently smile and say "They will heal soon"
They say at times like these, love helps you.
When someone cares for you, you have the tendency to fall in love with this person.
But the truth is
If that were to happen to me
I won't feel saved.
For if I were to fall in love when I am not really being the REAL ME,
Then the love might as well be temporary.
When the real me
The cheerful,
Weird,
Funky,
Tiny,
Smiling me,
Falls in love..
That's when I will experience the true emotions of the purest form of Love.
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Diary of my perfect mental disorders
RandomI am genocider and I suffer from anxiety and depression. And here I am sharing my little moments in life with you, hoping it would reach you.
