There's this guy. I've known him for over two years now, and in those two years we've dated four times. He's very attractive (to me, anyway) — he's tall, big (like muscle type big), and he's got a deep voice and everything. He's also frickin' hilarious, and has a nice style of clothing.
I'm a little crazy about him. But, I keep that to myself. The last time we dated was, like, five months ago, and he broke up with me. It was my fault, and I take full responsibility. But, it hurt really bad. I've dated two guys since then, but I think it was just an effort to distract myself from him. It didn't really work.
What makes it even worse is the fact that there's literal tension between us. And I think he feels it too, because I catch him looking at me a lot throughout the day. It's not bad tension, it's sort of sexual. I'm just in a really tough situation. He talks to me from time to time, and that just makes me want him even more. This sucks ass.
