i loved you
so much, i don't think you ever really knew.
i mean i knew you knew i liked you, but i really fucking loved you.
the way your dimples would show when you smiled and your bright blue eyes.
we hung out almost every day and i had to hold back the urge to hug you or hold your hand.
you liked my best friend.
i remember the night so vividly, you asked me if it was okay to ask her out.
that cold dreadful feeling washed over my whole body and all i could do was stare at you.
i think that's when you really knew.
i can't believe i still liked you after that.
i mean of course i looked at you in such a different way, i couldn't shake the way you made me feel.
like no one else has before.
you're so careless about everything and i think that's where i went wrong.
falling for someone who didn't care. at all.
and i still don't think he does,
but i don't either i guess.
