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Little rant

So, today, I made a joke on twitter. Someone pointed out that the video on the tweet above was making a beat on repeat. It was funny, so I made a beat in like 5, 10 min maybe nothing special just a little something to make the joke. But then, every person that saw the tweet started criticizing it. And talking about me like I couldn't see the responses. Well I could. And it was so hurtful. Like, I-... I made this thing just because it made me laugh, not because I was trying to be the next  Pharell. So now I saw all those mean comments and I can't get them out of my head. It's been like 3 maybe 4 hours and it still there in my head, on a loop. Telling me how much it sucks. How much I suck.  And I don't even know why I care because I didnt even cared about the song in the first place, well maybe a little but in a « its a good joke » kinda way.
And I saw that those people had gone on my profile, so I started deleting tweets and retweets and all those shit cause I was scared of being judged. It made me insecure about the things I liked. ITS NOT NORMAL. So now I'm starting to understand why a celebrity would delete the social medias cause that was like only 4 people that said mean things to me. They got thousands of them, millions for some.  How can you cope with that, how do you live your life, when everybody is making you insecure about what you like, what you do, who you like, what you say, how you look like... I don't know
The only thing I can understand right now, is that I'm hurt and that its okay, that doesn't make me a baby, that makes me human