There is so much everything in the world. There is too much. Too many people and leaves and trash and money and cells and thoughts and feelings. Machines, animals, phones. There is just so much, too much happening all at once and it scares me. It leaves me frozen and confused. I think about everything and I sometimes have anxiety attacks and I cry and I am petrified of that fact that there is just so much. Don't get me wrong I am thankful for the unknown, it is a beautiful thing. I am thankful for how much there is, but I just do not know if I can handle it all. There is so many things. I am one thing, I am nothing. And the only thing I want to find is a love who makes me feel safe and protected. I just want to be able to lay and breathe and have that be all because there is too much in this universe, so much that is terrifies me.
