𝖜𝖍𝖔 𝖆𝖒 𝖎 ? ─ ( 𝔰𝔢𝔞𝔰𝔬𝔫 𝔬𝔫𝔢 )

𝔦 𝔰𝔠𝔞𝔯𝔢 𝔪𝔶𝔰𝔢𝔩𝔣 𝔰𝔬𝔪𝔢𝔱𝔦𝔪𝔢𝔰 .

𝖎 𝖘𝖈𝖆𝖗𝖊 𝖒𝖞𝖘𝖊𝖑𝖋 𝖘𝖔𝖒𝖊𝖙𝖎𝖒𝖊𝖘

( 𝔢𝔩𝔦𝔞𝔰 𝔥𝔲𝔤𝔥𝔢𝔰 𝔱𝔬 𝔧𝔞𝔠𝔨 )

❝ i have never felt such an intense ache within me , these emotions that are brewing . . this combination of these three admired species . these abilities that i was blessed with , they are supposed to make me 𝖕𝖔𝖜𝖊𝖗𝖋𝖚𝖑 , yet i feel as if they only weaken me as a being . i can't get a grip on myself , i can't grasp a sense of control because whenever i do— whenever i gain that control that i have been longingly seeking , that is when it slips right through my fingers , that is when reality hits me . and it hit me jack , because now i realize that all of those occurrences that seemed as if they were just mere coincidences , in reality were not ;

the apartment 𝖋𝖎𝖗𝖊 , 

the truck 𝖈𝖗𝖆𝖘𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌 into a tree ,

my classmate 𝖉𝖞𝖎𝖓𝖌 , 

the flowers 𝖜𝖎𝖑𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌 . 

i now know ,

                                          it was all 𝖒𝖊 .❞