Zoyas Randomness

cry

umm..I want to cry. feel like I need to cry but I can't like I have no tears left so I can't. just feel lost tbh but I was feeling rly happy for the past few days and I usually dnt last that long so I thought I was getting better...yeah. But ummm when I feel happy I always know it's nvr gonna last long...and that's the worst feeling cause then u can't be yourself or be happy because your scares it's going to be over soon but then you want to be good company for your friends so you allow yourself to be happy and then end up crying all night.

I can't cry and so I just feel like I'm drowning. idek how to explain except like that.

I'm drowning

I can't stop it or change it all I can do now is wait and hope tomorrow will be better. Probably gonna sleep late cause I'll be twisting and turning not being able to sleep and when that happens I have hours to think and my thoughts r dangerous.