[Kihyun]
Your voice ringing in my head as soon as I read what you had wrote;
Kihyun-ah.. How are you?
I am mentally hurting, hyung..
Did you miss me?
I miss you so much..
It must've hurt right?.. I'm sorry I couldn't be the perfect boyfriend for you.
I should've tell you sooner about my illness.. but something stopped me.
It's the feeling of not wanting to see you hurting.
However, I realised.. my actions are selfish and I'm slowly regretting it.
I could've spend my last moments with you.
I could've tell you how much I love you.
I could've show you million things I wanted to show you.
But I didn't, and I hate it.
Kihyun-ah.. forgive me for being so stupid. I always thought that you're not strong enough to handle these when in fact, it was me who's too weak to even carry on with this life.
If you ever cry throughout the times I'm not there with you, blame me.
I deserve it.
But,
If I'm gone by now and you've received this letter, please..
Don't cry, that's all I ask for.
Because then it would hurt you more.
I don't want you to cry.
I love you, Yoo Kihyun.
You mean the world to me,
And I'm sorry for being a useless boyfriend for you.
Forgive me.
I can see the tears stained on the paper,
I could imagine you crying while writing this,
And I don't know who's hurting more,
Me or you?
I tried my best to stop these tears from falling,
But I just, can't.
Once again, it's the loneliness that slowly brought me into their cold embrace.
I turn the paper around and there's something written on it.
YOU ARE READING
𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕕𝕒𝕪 𝕨𝕖 𝕞𝕖𝕥 •SHOWKI• ✓
Random[Kihyun] I love you. maybe a little too much. maybe a little too late. Why can't I be honest with you? _________________________________________ [C O M P L E T E D ✓] Started: [12/04/2019] Finished: [13/06/2019] ___________________________________...
