Worlds change when eyes meet.

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"I missed Him."

I whispered to my pillow.

I always have this bad habit: cuddling with my pillows!

And I'm such a fool, because i imagine those pillows as if it was him.

I forgot what he looks like..

But i miss him, like a crazy..

I remember him like remembering dreams..

But how much i loved his sunkissed skin, and his big and yet so tired brown eyes! And i still do..

His fragile bones and his mind full of toughts..

His warm smile..

Always when i pass by him, i can't make eye contact with him..

It's all too much for me..

He don't love me..

He don't need me..

He's enjoying his life, and i'm just trying to enter his life..

I can't do that.. He'll reject me..

...

I looked at his face, and.. Oh my god! he was so pretty, so cute, so beautiful..

I want to kiss him so badly..

I want to bite his neck so badly..

I want to hug him so tightly..

Wait-.. He was looking at me?!

I founded something interesting, this boy is suffering from a depression..

He is smiling when he's with people, but it's a fake smile..

Then, he stare at me.. And remembers all those memories..

And his happy aura fade away..

He looks like he's about to cry..

I saw hope in his eyes when it changed eye contact with him..

A lost hope in those empty eyes..

He want to talk to me, but he's too weak to face reality..

Sorry, But i'm also too weak to face reality..

But i'll make it through you one day.. I'm sure that i'll face my fears and be strong this time!

Sorry that you always stare at me, and think that i don't stare at you..

I love him, he loves me.. I miss him, he misses me.. And we ruined all of this together..

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"Il m'a manqué."

Je murmurai à mon oreiller.

J'ai toujours cette mauvaise habitude: câliner avec mes oreillers!

Et je suis si bête, parce que j'imagine ces oreillers comme si c'était lui.

J'ai oublié à quoi il ressemble ..

Mais il me manque, comme un fou ..

Je me souviens de lui comme souvenir de rêves ..

Mais combien j'aimais sa peau ensoleillée et ses grands yeux bruns si fatigués! Et je le fais encore ..

Ses os fragiles et son esprit plein de courage ..

Son sourire chaleureux ..

Toujours quand je passe à côté de lui, je ne peux pas établir de contact visuel avec lui ..