SCHIZOPHRENIC LOVE

Stars may look so far
Hard to reach
Distance cannot be measured
Which make me sad
It is really far

Some stories always starts with an introduction. The introduction of protagonist, how they should run throughout the story and how they met the love of their lives. It is very transparent. I don't want to be like it. I, myself doesn't even know if I truly exist.

At ngayon
Di pa rin alam
Kung bakit tayo nandito
Pwede bang itigil mo na
Ang pag ikot ng mundo

"Ms. Maximoff?"

"Malapit na po"

Before I end the call, I felt the cold doorknob. Kahit nakakasawa na, paulit- ulit pa rin ako na bumabalik sa ospital na to. Sometimes it's weird, how I choose to do it by my own. Siguro dahil pakiramdan ko, deserve ko ang lahat nang ito. Well, that is what others believe. Including my parents.

"You never told me about this guy"

"Who?"

"I should be the one asking, Twilight. Who is Nicolai Parker?"

Chapter 1:

I don't want to believe them but there is no escape. I am really insane!

"Come on Dad, it was just a coincidence"

"It was not Twilight! I called your mom, and she confirmed it"

"Hindi niyo na sana ako binalik sakanya para walang nangyari"

"We need to see a doctor Twilight. You need to feel better"

"I'm fine Dad! Wala akong sakit. Kung ano man po yung nangyari, siguro masyado lang akong naguguluhan. You and mom separated, I got failing grade, my bestfriend migrated to Japan. I'm just tired, not sick"

"We tried Twilight. Please help yourself too"

"Dad, hindi ako baliw!"

Simula noon, hindi na ko lumabas ng bahay. Kinulong ko lang ang sarili ko sa kwarto. Ayaw ko nang may nakakausap na tao dahil pare-pareho lang ang sinasabi nila sa akin. Na baliw ako!

I tried to remember everything before Dad left me at my mom's house. From school, I get depressed, well I was really diagnosed depressed. Hindi ko na mapagsabay ang stress sa school plus ang biglaang separation ng parents ko.

For me, it's too much for me to take. Yung pakiramdam ko, sasabog na ko. I do not know how to accept things around me. Umaasa kasi ako na baka mabago pa. Baka nasa panaginip lang ako at hindi totoo ang mga nangyayari.

Then, Nicolai helped me.

Nakilala ko si Nicolai sa isang lugar na walang nakakakilala sa akin. Na walang magsasabi na baliw ako. I do not know how, but I liked it. Kung pipiliin ko na manatili dito, hindi na magbabago ang isip ko. I know, this will the perfect place for me to start anew. To start everything and be the new me!

"Ice cream?"

"Strawberry flavoured ba yan?"

"I am not a killer so no"

"Alam mo, hindi mo pa ko nasasagot ng yes or no lang. Lahat ng mga sagot mo in sentence. Mahaba na nga yung pang paragraph eh"

"You know, that is how you sh---"

"Oooopss, okay na. Matutunaw na yung icecream sa kamay mo"

"It's special. That was according to the signage at their ice cream parlor"

"Naniwala ka naman?"

"Yes. I don't think that they are fooling people while their doors are open 24/7"