Alex tries to grab my arm. I push him away. You:*sobbing*g-get the fuck a-away from me. Alex:*voice cracks*y-y/n... I run out of the dorm and go back to the beach. I leave the car there and dont tell des and carlos im there. I start walking to the farthest hotel. I find one. I rent 1 night and go to cvs. My eyes are red, i look like i havent slept in days, and im crying. I get ⚠ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠a rope and blades. I start to head back to the hotel. I see my phone is ringing from phone calls from text messages from Alex, Carlos, and des. I just ignore them. I get to my hotel room and sit on the bed like this;
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I start crying and crying my eyes out.
I grab the rope and blades and head to the bathroom. TRIGGER WARNING ⚠ I start to cut my wrists from side to side. I start yelling in pain. My hands shake as i start on the other side. I yell and yell as my wrists bleed. I sit there in silence.
I decide to call alex. "Calling 'alex💖😘😊' " You:*sobbing*a-alex, tell m-me why i s-shouldnt d-do it?😖 Alex:do what Y/N?!?!? you:k-kill mys-self Alex:WHAT?!?!?WHERE ARE YOU?? you:i... i...i... *sigh*alex, when i first laid my eyes on you, i automatically fell in love. You made my world better. The touch, the feeling of you made me feel safe. But you hurt me*crys*but its not your fault. I was gonna tell you*crys* what happened bc i would never cheat on you. When i saw y-you*crys* my heart broke into 8 million pieces. Goodbye my love, alex.🔫😖 Alex:NONONONONO. Y/N STOP. i hung up. I sit up and look in the mirror. I start crying and tie the rope to the (idk what you call is)pole. I stand on the edge of the shower tub. I tie the rope around my neck. I make sure its tight. I grab my phone and turn it on to where it doesnt ever turn off. I go to a picture of me and alex like this;
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I start crying my eyes out. I call alex one more time. You:alex, i love you. Goodbye. Alex:y/n- I hang up and it goes straight to the picture i look at it one more time and.......
I jump.
Its starts getting dark. I feel dizzy. My phone drops and i see alex calling. And right before i close my eyes one more time i hear......
