Heartache is missing the parts of someone that you didn't even like
you start to miss the way they yelledyou even miss the stupid fights
I find myself looking for you in everyone I meet
and every time I think about calling you I back out
I get cold feet
I keep trying to tell myself that It wasn't love and It wasn't real
keep trying to justify how bad you made me feel
but It was love for what I knew love to be at the time
you said our love was like a mountain
filled with bumps and occasional avalanches
but It was always worth the climb
I can feel okay for days then suddenly remember
the feeling of your hand intertwined with mine
how you were the only thing that made me feel like everything would be fine
I gave you everythinglike you had a gun to me
handed you my heart & threw away the key
It's like you're a language I am no longer fluent in
but still remember how to read
still part of the movie
but no longer the lead
how could you promise me forever then walk away?
after all the time you spent convincing me you'd stay
I always liked poetry but loving you turned me into a writer
and I always looked the other way when you pulled out your lighter
you said that the drugs helped with the demons inside your head
blamed It on the drugs when you had another girl inside your bed
even though I had just a little doubt in my mind
I was giving you the benefit of the doubt every time
four years together, you were my partner in crime
how could I still feel this way after everything you put me through?
maybe one day I'll mean it when I say I'm better off without you
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Late night thoughts
Poetrythese poems are thoughts that cross my mind in the lonely hours of the night when I start missing people who are no good for me.