MUTES SUBMIT

9:How to be a Mute

Luna's POV

So after finding out that I was a mute, I was devastated which very obvious. I still am and I don't know how I'll ever get over this unpleasant feeling of hating every single thing related to it. I am not going take the hate to my spiritual senses and say that this is not my body and that my soul has landed somewhere else other than its target because I don't want to end up in Dr Phil. Well he is a cool human and all but what would he know about how the super natural world works. As much as I want to rant about how wrong this turn was taken by my fate, I have to atleast experiment and know how it is like to be one and for now my mom would be a big help and an important guide for me. I won't reveal what I am right now to my friends because I need to see what I am first for myself and then let them know.

For some reason my heart was aching and my mind was still not convinced that I got too distracted and couldn't think of anything other then my new life as a mute supernatural being. My mom had informed the school that I was not feeling well...mentally and the principal understood. I spent those 2 months in my mom's super vision being home schooled. 

Honestly it wasn't just distraction but fear also that had forced me to stay indoors. I was afraid to go outside because the constant thought of being identified as mute and then rapped was haunting me and I felt insecure about myself. My mom tried hard to make me leave the house and come shopping with her and stuff. I would also reject Lelia and Moon coming to check up on me because I wasn't ready to tell them yet. I was afraid how would they react. Afraid of how Moon would react to see the most coward version of me. Lelia tried texting me and Moon tried calling me as well but I wouldn't see them nor answer any of the calls. At one point I even switched off my phone to avoid them. I found the constant 'beep' of my phone's ringtone very annoying.

Those 2 months were hell for me and as much I was afraid to admit it, I really missed my friends and the outside world. I wanted fresh air and all this indoor environment was making me sick. I had to get out of my house and explore more but not in the day light. When I was certain that Moon and Lelia were home and no one in my neighbourhood would be lurking around, I would go out in my garden and... well I was just over whelmed because I missed this. My physical freedom was something that I missed alot.

When I first stepped out from the indoors, I was hit with a welcoming breeze of the night. It was cool yet felt so warm; so right. I inhaled it and realized that the air isn't an empty element; it was sensual. I could smell flowers, fruit, wet earth, dewy leaves and rocky scents from every corner that it invoked a new emotion in me. Calmness. The green grass felt so soft underneath my footsteps and the dirt that I walked on had a smooth yet a chunky texture but since it was cool, it felt nice. I never realized how beautiful the garden is. My mother had planted all sort of flowers here and I could not only smell them but feel and taste them? The trees stood tall and their bark had a beautiful design that my eyes couldn't seem move else where from. The best part was the vast night sky which was a dark blue and the stars that accessorized them. It was mesmerizing that I felt so giddy. I let out a laugh that was stuck in my throat as I rolled in the grass. Call me childish but I did not care at that time. I started appreciating nature more.

'Mutes enjoy nature and are deeply connected to it. Their heart and their soul. You can't confine them from the wonders of this planet', Mist would tell me.

I then realized that I can't let this misfortune isolate me from socializing forever. I needed to accept this somehow even if I was too scared to step outside. In this second month I faced something very cruel, very harsh that it scared me. It was traumatizing but I had to show myself brave to others. My pack. My Moon.

I finally went to school after that week.

Sure I had many question thrown my way but I had a resting scowl on my face which was a part of my act that I had rehearsed. My friends kept asking me what happened and I snapped (it was acting ofcoarse) and said in a teeth gritted voice, "My stupid supernatural other or Mist as she states her name has a bad bitch attitude. Ugh these aggressive Royal Blood genes and this stupid monster quarrelled with me. I just did not want to show up to school because I was disappointed. Also I had to tame that monster for you." Well they bought my lie but I felt so guilty inside. Soon I could hear Mist inside me saying, "Excuse you? I used the politest tone, it was you who was being rude to me.". But after that traumatizing event in the night of my second month, I was scared to reveal myself and concealed my identity.