Today has been..interesting. I've been really depressed lately, and honestly suicidal. I've never harmed myself, other than a couple times, but I just made myself bleed then. My art project is due tomorrow and I'm not even half-way done, so I should probably work on that. I've been so tired recently though. I've had multiple breakdowns over the past couple days. I can't stop thinking about my mom. June 18th will be 3 years since she's passed. It's hard to go on without a mom for support everyday. My dad tries, I know he does, but he has no compassion whatsoever. I feel like running away sometimes, but then realize I have nowhere to run to. It's getting pretty late, and my dad has to be up for work soon. I should head to bed, but I'm scared. I've been having gruesome nightmares recently. To the point where I can't handle them. Does anyone else feel this alone? I only have one person that is even thinking about hanging out with me over the summer. Why am I always so alone? I get it I'm not popular, or smart, or even good looking! But why does no one care? Why is everyone always so busy? No one has time for me. I'm gonna head to bed. Goodnight Journal✌🏻
