i wanted to run,
but i forced myself to stay.
our eyes met, my boring blue ones meeting the most beautiful brown eyes i've ever seen.
"you're back," he let out a soft chuckle, his gaze falling to the ground.
"yeah."
"thank god. i didn't know what i was gonna do if you never came back."
i wanted to tell him that i loved him.
but i didn't.
because despite him denying it, he is the most perfect person on the planet.
and i'm just me.
i don't want to hurt him.
i don't want to get hurt.
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"i don't want to be your rebound."
the words rang through my mind, each syllable echoing as i mentally replayed the sentence in my head.
"what?" it felt like the room was spinning.
"don't use me to get over tate. she was perfect. you're perfect. i don't deserve you," i opened my mouth to speak, but he continued. "i used to tell myself that maybe we could be together, maybe i was good enough for you, and you say always that i'm such a good person but i'm definitely worse than you, and-and this," he motioned between us "won't work."
"i don't understand," my voice was barely a whisper now.
"i-i have issues that you can't fix, and i have to stop setting myself up for heartbreak," he tugged on a strand of his beautiful, soft blond hair.
"i can help you," i tried.
"i can't do relationships, jo. it'll just be a neverending cycle of me shutting you out and letting you back in and just constantly messing with your head. you don't want me, trust me."
with every word, i felt my heart break a little bit more. not for me, but for him. he is one of the most stunning, kind-hearted, funny people on the planet and he is convinced that he is a terrible person.
"why do you even try, jo?"
and then it felt like time stopped. do i tell him?
"because i love you."
i could practically see his brain processing the three words i just said.
those eight letters.
so i kissed him.
again.
and i felt my heart soar.
and when i pulled away,
nothing.
so i pushed past him, tears threatening to fall.
"wait."
i turned, expecting to hear some sort of self deprecating comment from him.
"i love you too."
the end.
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running ✽ donah
Fanfiction[completed] in which jonah has dumped tatum to be with daniel, but daniel still doesn't know where he stands [book two in the lauren cimorelli series] inspired by the song running by lauren cimorelli