The Clown Behind The Mask

1. The broken door

Lemme start this book
With something good
I really don't know
How does it look?

Well ...first thing to say is
These are not poems
I don't write poems

Instead..
I write my emotions
My feelings..
My fears ..

You want a happy book?
There are a lot..
While this is not!

You can PM me
Walk into my heart
And yeah
You can leave me 'just like that' too

I got no boundaries
Got no walls
You got me all ears
When I'm not the one at fall

In the start..
While my heart was tender
I used to lock people I loved
inside

I used to lock them
So they can't leave me,right?

But still ..
They seems to be so desperate
So they broke the doors
Just to get away

Well... of course it hurt.. in the start
Made me a damn masochist
And I never even tried to fix it
Maybe I didn't want to..

I didn't want to..
I don't want to..
I never wanted to..

Or maybe I misunderstood
Maybe
Just maybe
They all were claustrophobes
They might have been
afraid and suffered
Afraid to be trapped

Trapped with me..

Hey!
I like someone
They do like me too
But ...
"Would you like to hate me?"

'Cause I can't
Still..
I don't want u to
be trapped inside me too
Just like those
Suffered..

I want to set you free
Still..
I don't know..

Why the heck do you even care to fix the door?!!