Love of Roses [Poetry & Prose]

Happy Father's Day

I grew up without my father beside me,
I only know his favorite things when my mother told their lovestory to me,
I don't know how he cares,
I don't know his favorite songs,
I don't remember the last time he open the door of our house and his footstep towards my mother's bedroom,
I don't remember the last time he said I love you,
And I forgot how he kissed my forehead when we're going to sleep,
I forgot everything about him,
I'm thirsty for his love-
A father's love.

I was 9 years old when he fly to abroad,
He built his business there,
And 10 years later,
I heard from my neighborhood that he has another family there,
I was broken that day as well as my mother's heart,
I don't wanna believe that but he told me that it was true.
He is so unfair,
His daughter there knew how he love,
She knew what a father's love is,
She knew the feeling when my father hugged her and kissed her before sleep,
She knew what makes him laugh,
He is so unfair,
And I don't want days to come that he will only went back home when he's sick,
When he's running for a breath,
When he's crying because I don't know him,
When he's regretting about his mistake,
When he wants my mother back,
And I don't know if he have a guts to do that.
The people around keep breaking us,
And I don't want to think we're broken.
Happy Father's Day,
I hope you know that I love you no matter what you did and I'm still grateful that God chose you to be my father.

Love, Julie 🌹❤️