Give Me Love (A Zayn Malik Fan Fiction)

Chapter Seven - Her

Zayn’s perspective:

In many ways I was glad I didn’t have a phone because that gave me an opportunity to relax, I didn’t have to worry about everything because there was nothing I could do about it. It was only annoying because I couldn’t call three of my best friends and my family. I could but calling busy people from a pay-phone was pretty impossible, they never answered and they couldn’t call me back later.

I just had to suffer through it. I tried to keep a smile on my face and Harry and I were brothers again. He believed me now that I had never done any drugs. I had just gotten in to a very bad situation since my ex girlfriend came to my apartment. Placed drugs on my table while I was in the shower and let Paul inside when he rang the bell.

I wondered a little about were Lacey was now. I didn’t really care about her well-being but I just hoped that she was gone and wouldn’t come back into my life again. I had trusted her with everything. It’s a shame that you can be so wrong about a person. I didn’t really think that she was the one for me; I couldn’t see myself getting married to her and have children with her. Maybe that’s things you say after you get your heart broken just to make yourself feel better again, but I know it wasn’t true love.

As much as I trusted Lacey, I had never loved her and I had never said it either because I would never say it when it isn’t true. I though love was something that would come later in life, or something that would develop with time but I now knew that wasn’t true.

I knew it’s completely stupid and idiotic to feel that way but I did. I was in love with a girl I had just met. A very beautiful girl that I had just met but I didn’t need to know her. I didn’t need to know her in order to love her. Her eyes, her smile, her tears and her clothes, told me all about her. Her favourite music, her art, her tragic past and that she had a heart filled with love to give to someone.

Ever since I met her that day on the station I can’t stop thinking about her. She is exactly the kind of person I need in my life. I would give everything to talk to her in private but after our theatre lessons, she was gone within the blink of an eye. I rarely saw her anywhere else than in that room. I saw her sometimes in lunch but I guess she was trying to hide as much as she could; the others weren’t so nice to her. That f*cking Tracy made me say things to Jesse that I deeply regret but I knew Jesse wouldn’t take it to heart. One thing I’ve learned about Jesse is that she’s strong. She doesn’t let the words get to her. She stays strong no matter what.

Like everywhere else I walked, a lot of people were fans. Well here most of the people wanted to hang with us because who wouldn’t like to say that they once ate lunch with Harry and Zayn from One Direction. Harry and I were very cautious about whom we spent our time with but we think we’ve found a few good lads and lasses to hang out with.

We had Mike and Lucas. They were really good friends and they spent every summer together on the camp. Harry met them in his music-class so he introduced them to me. There was also Mike’s girlfriend Skyler which was in Romeo and Juliet with me. She had two friends called Macey and Olivia. And I was pretty sure that those two spent a cabin with Jesse, I just couldn’t bring myself to ask them about her.

You know how they say I’m the quiet one in the bad? That’s true. The others are always happy and cheery but it’s often that I just need a break from everything. Then I simply back off to have some time by myself. Usually I retreated into my apartment but here I escaped to the woods. I took a little walk for a while just to clear my head and enjoy the quiet time. Normally I wouldn’t walk, I was lazy but it actually was nice to get out for a while.

On the first Sunday everyone were going to take the camp bus into the little town but I didn’t feel like it. Harry went together with our new friends while I started to take a walk around the camp. It was mostly empty. I met a girl and her friends that begun to talk with me. They were obviously huge fans so I owe them that. I know that sounds bad that I saw it as an obligation to talk to them but this day I really felt like being alone again.

After politely answering their pretty odd questions I moved on. I spotted that mean girl, Tracy I believed was her name; and her friends so I quickly walked right down a trail into the forest. I held a pretty quick pace as I wanted to get out of sight and didn’t really look where I was going.

I slowed down believing that I was lost and looked around. Listening carefully I heard a guitar echoing between the trees. I walked towards the light between the trees, which were a meadow.    

There she was, sitting on a rock surrounded by grass, flowers and trees, strumming her guitar. Her back was facing me and her long blonde hair was hanging low down on her back. Jesse.

I didn’t know if I were going up and tell her that I was there. My mind was fighting with myself, one part of it told me to turn around and leave her alone like she probably wanted to be. I had decided to either leave or go up to her when she started picking the tunes to a new song. I wished I could play guitar as good as her, her fingers moved quickly over the strings. When she started singing I was completely mesmerized.  

“Imagine a world without me - say you're falling apart

Let's pretend you've missed me for a while

Wouldn't you say you were lonely and love was breaking your heart?

Put on your Sunday best and fake a smile.”

I leaned up against a nearby tree and just relaxed and enjoyed the music.

“I dream of dreaming dreams of him - in twilight he's a constant blur

The picture is clear and I'm still fact he's fiction.”

She sang the song with such an incredible emotion and I related strongly to the song. I had many dreams of Jesse, both in my sleep and daydreams. She was just one of those souls I thought were too good to be true so sometimes I wondered if she really was real. Maybe she was just fiction in my head?

“Remember the night you were with me - fell asleep by my side

Strangers together - your hand in mi…”

Suddenly Jesse stopped singing. She quickly turned around and saw me standing there spying at her.