mortem

5

You whisper your lover's name

While Life is leaving.

I understand the fact that you thought I wouldn't care.
I understand the fact that you are shy sometimes.
I understand that you text me just when you are broken.
I understand that you call me just when you need something.

But this?

I cannot understand.

I cannot understand why didn't you tell me.
I cannot understand why did you do those things.
I cannot understand why you are giving up on me so easily when I was there and when I fucking cared for you. When I fucking stayed late thinking about you and how to make you feel ok and shit. When I fucking destroyed myself just to show you that I'm fine (even I wasn't) so you would be happy.

But this means nothing for you.

I was just a shoulder to cry on.

I was just a fucking thing with no emotions and with no life.

No, no, no. I'm wrong. I was fucking nothing for you.

So enjoy your lovely masterpiece.

Far away
The devils are singing
Joyfully
My agony.