before i'm 21

insecurity, dos (why me?)

why'd you make that face when you realized i was on your phone
why'd you look at him like that
why'd you snatch your phone from me
why'd you lean over me to see what i'm doing on your snapchat
why do i so vividly think of you getting fucked harder by someone else
fuck you
why is he texting you
why do you smile like that with him
why is he touching you
why can't i be okay with you
why can't i be okay with myself
why do i overthink everything
why am i not good enough?
where are you
who are you with
when can i see you again
whatever
why are you being nice to me
did you cheat on your lover to be with another
where did you learn to do that
do you miss him
do you love him
did you miss me
do you love me more than him
i love you
i love yourself
i don't love yourself
i don't love myself
i do not love myself
who are you on the phone with
why did you lean in so close to him
why were you two alone
when can we talk about things
when are you gonna stop
when is it gonna stop
when am i gonna stop
why do you wanna go away for college
what about us
what about me
what about you
what about those pinky promises
what about those nights i cried to you
why won't you post me
why do you always tell me you love me more
why does it always feel like i love you more
why do the stars disappear when it gets cloudy
why does the rain bounce off the ground into the mouths of greenery
why can i see the sun
but the sun cannot see me
why do i have to believe in god
why can't he believe in me