As I watch the raindrops tumble, and I hear the thunder rumble
I sit, stuck in my own thoughts that I can't seem to escape, as the rain tumbles on
There was once a time where I thought nothing would change
I always thought my life was as steady as the seasons come and go
I couldn't have been more wrong, I realize now, sitting there at break of dawn
Suddenly the rain stops, and all I hear are the gutter's tin drops
And now, as silence passes over me, I'm stuck to think again
I remember that day like yesterday, you've made it so I never forget
You said you never wanted to leave, to be done, but now your gone
Our story was made to end, so clearly, I guess it could've been written out in pen
As a rainbow now appears, in what used to be so gray, I'm left to say
"My heart feels so shattered, so ignored, the way you left..."
And again, I'm stuck in silence, sitting there, thinking of you
Sometimes I wish you didn't exist, because you're breaking me until it's bearable
I remember a time when I was blessed
Just as it came, the rainbow is no more, so it reveals, my heart is at war
Running into burning buildings, scattered ash with a burnt up feeling
So now I sit, thinking of before, wishing that I could wake up with amnesia
Realizing that we've both changed in ways unimaginable
You've left me on the floor kneeling, so all that's left is healing
As I sit thinking, a anger suddenly arises, I wasn't clearly thinking
As I remember what had happened to us, that dreadful summer night
When we said goodbye, and all that was us, is gone.
I think suddenly back, when all that remained was smoke and fire
The night you snuffed out all the light
This silence I experience, is pounding at my heart very serious
You've changed since I first met you
Kind, caring, sweet. That's what you used to be.
Now your cold, rude, and fake. That's all that's left to be seen now
This change in you, had almost come right out of the blue
Suddenly, I think of our conversation, that melancholy night, when we lost our foundation
Our whole relationship, thrown away like your gum in the trash
I think of the moments, leading up to that horrid day
I quickly stop, and try to forget, what I was just forced to remember
One moment we're fine, the next we're done. As if it was done in a flash
So I sit, stuck in my thoughts once more. Feeling as I'm in a pit
I feel so betrayed, so hurt, so used. Sometimes, I wished I had stayed
I feel broken and lost and angry at him
He made me this, this empty vessel of what I once was
Then, when I think, I really know I'm not the one to think that way
I know what I did is unforgivable, and I know this will be unforgettable
I know I did things I shouldn't have to you, like you were nothing from the start
I hope your life is better now, then what it ever could be with me
As I sit and ponder, I think of what I had done, and I realize, I should have thought this from the beginning
You tore me apart, and I broke your heart
Suddenly, the silence is broken, even though no words were ever spoken
My phone lights up as I'm torn from my thoughts
Your name, on the screen as I can't believe you called me
I let it go to ring, to painful to hear your voice again
When you pop up again, voicemail rings, my stomach is left in knots
As it's unusually quiet once more, my heart drops to the floor
I turn my phone off once more, never truly wanting to hear your voice again
I sit and wonder, how am I to ever face you again
Some say we should still be friends, others say it should be what I want
Now all I want is some comfort, some advice, from no other, than my friend
He says to talk to him, to talk and not be grim
Although I have no idea what to say, I hope this is the last I ever want to know
So my heart doesn't go through this time and time again
So with a straight face and a scratchy throat, I dial
All I can get out is, "I hope that every road leads you where you want to go"
