Not A Bad Thing

I Don't Need To Live By Your Rules

Harry stopped falling in love with her for a moment, which he couldn't- no matter what he did.

He couldn't plant a kiss anywhere without asking her what was wrong, and "Girl problems" wouldn't cut it.

"Why did you do that to me?"

"Harry..." Bethany remembered she was in a fight with him, and stopped staring at him lovingly.

"I...I am scared." She plainly said. "And I don't want or need a pep talk about how it's going to be hard- yeah I get that. But I love the way you make me feel, Harry. I just do."

"Bethany, this is going to be perfect. Our relationship is about me and you. Not anything else. You mean so much to me. I hope you know that."

Harry gently smiled, he stepped toward her and touched her shoulders, pulling their bodies together.

"That's not what I mean." she said and Harry pulled away from her a bit.

"What- what are you scared of, then, Bethany?" he asked.

"I'm just going to say it. Okay?"

Harry nodded.

"I'm scared of...."

Bethany glanced down, Harry stared at her face.

She looked back up.

"Sex."

Harry rose his eyebrows up.

"Sex?"

"Yes. Sex."

"Sex? Wh- What? You're scared of sex?"

"You're making me even more nervous." Bethany whispered and rose her eyebrows to prove her point.

"I'm sorry. Um... wh- what makes sex.. scary for you? I mean, besides everything you've heard from doctors and... people..?"

Harry tried to chuckle, but realized this was serious.

"I'm scared of having sex. I've never had sex before..It's hard to live up to you when you've slept around."

Harry frowned as Bethany slid down the wall the sit.

Harry followed.

"I did sleep around. But that was years ago. I was such a horrid person before I got into... One Direction.." Harry started lowering his voice, he didn't know why. "Now One Direction is going to fail." Harry breathed through his nose, scoffing. He shook his head.

"I won't let that become of me Bethany I won't."

Bethany bit her lip in thought. She wanted everything to be perfect, Harry to continue One Direction, they date for a while, and become something....amazing. But she couldn't do that if Harry wasn't part of this boy band. He could be out of the band, but he would never stop thinking of why Liam did this. Liam Payne: destroyer of dreams : Destroyer of the year award.

Bethany knew she wasn't helping as she sat away from him. She lifted herself to his side and her side rubbed against his side.

Harry felt her arms wrap around his stomach. Bethany rested her head on his shoulder.

"Why is life so complicated?" Harry whispered.

Bethany hummed. She reached down to his thigh and grabbed his hand.

She enveloped her hand into his.

"It's not complicated. We just make it that way."

Harry looked down at Bethany and she felt his hand go around her stomach to her other side and she felt his arm hooking underneath her arm pit and his hand touched her face.

Harry turned her face toward his.

Bethany looked up to his eyes and felt his lips touch her face, above her nose between her eyebrows.

She closed her eyes and let his warm kiss overwhelm her.