Missing Soul: the immortal princess||BTS ff||

Chapter 17-Anxiety Attack-

"I felt cold... colder then anything. Colder than death..."

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It's been days since my mother's death... me and Felix had nice bondings together with Bangtan. But behind those happy times was a confused and lost aura of mine. Still trying to find the reason why would a none-human creature kill my innocent mother. Who has nothing to do with anything...And why only my mother... not to complain or something but why do they have to leave Felix alive? Alone? Was he cursed to spy on me? Was he turned into something else?

So many thoughts running through my head. An ocean deep of conclusions, a sea deep of questions and stupid delusions yet a bucket of not-so-sure answers and solutions. This alarmed me. Making me sigh as I look at myself in the mirror of my bathroom. All of my bad thoughts started to show up. Bad thoughts that starts to play in my head. I close my eyes tightly hoping that it would end. Like I always do when this happens. But then again. I was wrong. More massive bad thoughts came running through my head. All the pain that I've been through. All the anger and madness. All the tears.

In frustration I walk backwards as I held my hair tightly. Fighting the inner demon right inside me. Fighting back the screams that tries to escape from my mouth. Trying so hard to make it disappear as I slowly and repeatedly whispered...

"Please someone help me..."

These are the words that would always escape from my mouth when I'm alone while I cry all by my own. But when I'm around the people I know... I have nothing else to show but bravery.

I breath in and out. Slowly calming myself while I think of happy memories. Happy memories with my parents wouldn't work... memories with my ex wouldn't work either...I don't know what to do?! I feel like I'm falling down into a deep well of water drowning me and pulling me under. I feel my head being squeezed and poked with thorns. How I wish I could just fall into a deep slumber. I hit my head, massage it, did every method to make this pain go away. This anxiety attack kills me and I don't what to—

"Krisel?? Are you coming with us or not?"one voice asked behind the door of my bathroom which I assume was Hoseok.

Hearing him calms me down, my frowning face, teary eyes turns into a worried and concerned face—

"I-I'm coming! J-just wait for me in the car!" I yelled as I tried to sound normal...

"Okay?" They said suspiciously... "are you alright?"They asked

"Y-yeah! Totally fine!! Just go!" I said.

"You sure? We could come in and check-"

"No! Don't come in!"

"Why?" One said a bit sassy...I guess Yoongi said that.

"I-I'm...naked?" I said not sure of what to say...

"Naked? What are you doing naked?"I assume Namjoon was the one who talked

"Taking a bath!"I yelled

"Taking a bath?! For almost 2 hours? The hell are you really doing in there?" Yoongi asked

"Just freakin' go!! I'm busy!"

"Oh really?!"Yoongi said sassing me again.

"Min Yoongi, Don't make me force you to wait there!"

"Come on Yoongi!" I assume Jin said that...

"Tss... that idiot..." I mumbled...

I breath in and out... I then realised that my anxiety attack was gone... I smile while I realise that my happy memories wasn't really my past... it was my present...Bangtan...

I victoriously smiled and went outside. I got ready and head to the car where BTS waited for me.

~time skip~

As I sat down at the passenger's seat I received a disgusted look from Yoongi...

"Yoongi, I will stick your face into a toilet bowl, stop looking at me like that."

"You are disgusting."

"Yah! I told you I was taking a bath!" I defended myself.

"Yeah right! By the looks on your face, you look innocent! Well I guess you're not!"

"Yah! Yah! It doesn't mean I have the sin of lust doesn't mean I'm not innocent! I do not do those such things!"I argued back at him.

"Eww! You have the sin of lust?!"

"The hell is wrong with having the sin of lust?! For your information,all living creatures have a sin of lust! So don't act innocent cause you've watch some of those sh*t before! Who knows maybe you still do now!" I barked at him. He was about to talk when he realised something...

"You're right there..."

"You still watch-"

"No! All creatures have a sin of lust. Don't be a pervert!"he yells back at me...

"I'm not a pervert you white mud ball!" I said as I crossed my arms.

"Can we go now?" Lucas asked...

"I thought we were already there?"I asked

"Nope. We haven't moved a single inch..."

"Because the two of you kept arguing and arguing!"Jin yelled

"Yeah!!" Felix agrees.

"Felix! We're the team here! Don't agree with him!" I told my brother. He just giggled... I just pouted..."let's go to Felix's new school..."

~time skip~

We arrived at Felix's new school... I looked at him...

"Remember felix. If someone bullies you, tell me his full name and I'll take care of everything! Okay?" I said with a small smile...

"Yes Noona!"

Author's POV

These past days. Ever since Felix stepped into the house, everything went clear to the boys... they have saw the real side of Krisel... making them fall for her even more... they have saw the caring side of Krisel even more... this made their feeling wide and clear... making them say to themselves as they look at her smile to her little brother...

"How could a dangerous creature like you, steal my human heart... you were different from what we expected... all of the fairy tales that were told to us were wrong..."

"An immortal princess like you... is not hideous... but to me..." they thought...

"You're my one and only goddess... the goddess I love..."

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