BTS WORLD: Reality

Chapter 3.

After pulling up to a luxury hotel, we get escorted through the back entrance and use the staff elevator to reach the 4th floor.

Everyone piles into one room, although they each have their own room key

As soon as the doors closed I hear a soft voice say "Ok who's getting dream girl?"

Jimin sits on the couch, his legs crossed, as he surveys everyone's reactions

"Paper scissors rock?" I hear Hoseok suggest

I stifle a giggle, they're grown men but they settle everything like children. I'm glad to know that hasn't changed

Suddenly 7 fists are in a circle and they're chanting, holding out different fingers to form one of three objects

RM loses instantly and groans

"Hey... I'm not that bad... I don't snore." I offer up, trying not to show how offended I am that they all seem glad they don't have to share a room with me.

I feel a deep pang if hurt when I see that RM looks disappointed that he's the one who has to stay with me

He hums in the most disheartened way, I almost wince

"I'm just gonna go." I announce and turn to leave

"Just because I don't want you in my room doesn't mean I don't want you here..." RM says, looking reluctant to express his thoughts

"I just prefer being alone." Namjoon confesses, obviously being nice for Tae's sake

I know him, and I know that he doesn't prefer to be alone. He gets really depressed if no one's around him for a while, but I keep myself from commenting and simply nod

I wish he didn't mean as much to me as he does

I find it sad that RM doesn't want me in his room but I totally understand, I'd hate to have a stranger in my room while I sleep who claims to have spent 4 years with you that you have no recollection of

Not that that's likely to happen to me

"Well, I'm exhausted, leave my room." Suga announces, looking about ready to pass out

I respectfully shuffle out into the hallwayand trail behind RM to his room where I see a couch and a king size bed.

"Namjoon, I know you don't know me and it's creepy that I know a lot about you so if at any point you feel uncomfortable just let me know and I'll get a cab. I don't want you to feel unsafe." I say sincerely, talking to his back as he sits on the side of his bed

He turns partially around and lets out a disheartened "Okay"

I know that there's something RM wants to say but he's holding himself back

"Just say it" I encourage, hating the uncomfortable tension between us

He shifts and turns to me, crossing his legs

"You don't really seem to want to be here, why are you staying?"he asks, tilting his head curiously as his eyes make contact with mine

I mull over my answer before I reply " I do want to be here, I really do. I just don't want to be somewhere I'm not wanted which is why I want to leave. I can see how this situation is making everyone feel uncomfortable, other than Taehyung. The reason I'm staying is because I care about him, I care about all of you."

I lived with you for almost 4 years, we were so close and all of you seemed to accept me into your lives. I know that will never happen again, but I can't just throw away the love that I had for all of you. I will always care about you Joon. I'm staying because I don't know what to do, because I came home to a life I barely remember and being with you guys makes everything a little less jarring." I say, trying and failing to explain how I feel