i sat my lonely self down again with hot cocoa in hand. this christmas was going to be super lonely.
me and tommy finally hit it off after the night of the ballroom dance and i couldn't be happier. but right now he was halfway across the country shooting a movie and i've been so lonely this winter.
it's currently christmas eve and i've been to upset to go and actually do something. this is probably my tenth time watching frosty the snowman.
i set down the cocoa on a coaster and grabbed a pillow i could hug for some support, but it's nothing like toms. i think i'm about to drive myself insane...
i decided to get up and shower for tomorrow morning. i know my mom and dad are going to want to see me so i got to look decent for them. they have no clue i'm going through this depression and i don't really want them to know.
i twist the handle to hot and let the steaming water run down me. i did the usual shower routine and was out half an hour later. i brushed my teeth, changed into one of tommy's big crewnecks be left behind and some comfy shorts.
i went back to my usual lazy spot on the couch and started to watch some rudolph as the cold snowflakes hit up against the window, and sooner or later, i drifted off into a deep sleep.
~time skip til like 4 am~
i don't know if i was dreaming or not but i heard my apartment door click, but i decided to ignore it and go back to sleep, not even bothering walking to my bed.
the door creaked open a little. i'm just dreaming it's fine. i'll have a little something to try and remember when i get ready in the morning so i'm not completely bored.
the footsteps in my dream were quietly getting close as the door shut behind them. i felt a pair of arms going underneath my legs and my shoulders and being slowly lifted of the couch... ok i'm not dreaming but i'm scared if i open my eyes i'll see something or someone i don't want to see. but my curiosity got the best of me.
my eyes fluttered open and it took me awhile to regain my focus. "hey go back to sleep sweetheart" the boy i've been desperate for spoke.
i felt like my heart just jumped out of my throat.
"tommy..." i cooed tiredly at him. i got the strength to lift up one of my arms and gently rub my thumb up again his soft face. i just want to kiss him so bad.
"hey love," he said as he set me down in my bed and turned on my lamp so we could actually see each other. "i missed y-"
i quickly cut him off by pressing my lips against his cold ones, but i couldn't care less. i needed his touch.
"i missed you so much tommy..." i pulled away from him as i felt my eyes tear up and i didn't want them to.
"aw baby come here," he said in his tired voice and opened up his arms.
i wrapped my arms around his waist as he wrapped his around my shoulders and rested his head on top of mine.
he pulled away and cupped my cheeks with his hands and just started to kiss my face all over, making me laugh a little bit.
"alright let me get under the covers i'm freezing, then you can kiss me all you want" and smiled at me as i was going to cry again, but luckily i didn't.
he opened up his arms and i crawled right in them, resting my head on his chest as had one arm around my waist, and one tracing patterns on the side of my thigh, and he topped it off with a little head kiss.
"i thought i was going to be lonely for christmas." my eyes closed of tiredness.
"it's okay love i'm here" he softly whispered in my ear.
i turned my body and looked up at him as he looked down at me confused. i just smiled at his furrowed brows and kissed him again, and again, and again. i missed his touch.
"cut it out will you?" he said in a gentle tone and a scrunched nose. i cupped his face one more time and gave him a nice little passionate one before i stopped annoying him. "hey c'mon now it was getting good."
"whatever" i teased at him and laid right back in the same position i was in before, but hugging him way tighter. "i'm happy you're back"
he squeezed me back ever tighter, "me too sweetheart."
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i'm hurt like really bad lmfao and i'm super bored like summer sucks ass so hard right now. i was so looking forward to this but now i'm basically locked up in a jail cell. i haven't been out of my house and my mom won't let me out of my house. i'm done i'm really trying not to kill myself here.
