When I think too hard, I black out. I would then open my eyes again to the same setting (most of the time) and realize that I am in the same place but not at the same time. While my mind is still in the past, I realize when I wake up that I am now in the present. It is confusing but that is just how it feels. It is just that when I knock out, I literally, KNOCK OUT. It takes a while until anyone knows why I "knock out" and it took awhile for me at a certain time of my life too. Sometimes I lay on my bedroom floor and question myself. Door locked, I let the tears flow. I find myself crying in my room and for what! For acceptance? For success? For failure?
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“Breathe Kai. Breathe,” my conscience tells me. “Take deep breaths.”
At the exact same time, he tells me to calm down as well. He lifts my face up with his palm and wipes the tears forming. He does all this while I haven’t even opened my eyes. I can feel him pull me into his arms and embrace me until I calmed down. He knew it all.
