WORDS FOR PEOPLE I ONCE CALLED MINE

CHAPTER 1: FOR D

1.
it's dark outside
i can only see you when you're taking a hit from your cigarette
what are you thinking about ?
about you
i think and say nothing
your neighbours are taking the trash out
how late is it ?

and why are you looking at me like this

2.
have you ever seen a dead person?
you did
how was that for you ?
you were confused
you say
let's go to sleep
yes but
are you still alive ?

3.
I hear you calling
where's your voice coming from ?
help me
why aren't you saying anything
you don't know
don't you notice that i'm feeling
why don't you want me
help me
i'm singing love songs for you
you take out your headphones
and light a cigarette
what's up?
how was your day ?

4.
i want to feel you
but my fingertips are numb
you press the bruise on my thigh
are you in pain?
yes
you press harder and you laugh
how happy are you really ?

5.
are you feeling what i'm saying
even if i don't look at you ?
can you still feel me
even if i'm not there ?
i can't help you
will you let me leave ?
i still hold on to you too hard

6.
dry lips
the windows are open
it's raining
you look at me from across the room
tell me there's no us

and if there is

where ?

7.
i'm burning
because you're just like me
still so different
i'm sweating
but for you it's raining
the weather's weird
here in berlin

8.
smoke
comes out of your mouth
like
fog when it's very early
red
lips and eyes like the lingerie i put on for u
every
single touch feels electric
your
energy is killing me

burn me

9.

patience
nothing good happens fast
but nobody wants to wait
i'm hectic
giving you all my love
don't ask what time it is
when i'm laying in your bed
throw it away

fast