The soil we walk on

One

( I am no writer and there will be lots of mfing errors and such)

The Arrest

We were going to the eye doctors I needed new glasses and my sister Abbie needed an eye exam.We never did get either of those. I rushed my dad that morning because we were always late and this was important. Me and my sister both blame ourselves for what happened on the way the guilt doesn't go away. We were in our old green truck with expired tags and seat belts that didn't work so every run was a risk but they were needed. That car also had a shit ton of problems and every so often didn't work but my dad did wonders everytime like he does in every situation thrown at us. His family was never too thrilled to share with us so we rarely got to use their cars even if he paid for gas.Believe it or not his family does play a part in this so bear with me.

I was leaning forward out of sight because the aux cord was messing up when I was gently shoved back by my dads hand and before I could ask any questions Red and blue lights with a loud siren went off. I felt my face drain of its color and panic filled my body as my heart beat quickened.I felt Abbie stiffen ,My dad quickly took out his wallet as he pulled into a lot he opened it and took out his driver license and ID while we stared at him with big eyes. he briefly counted the money he had and handed us his wallet and everything from his pockets. His words I can't quite remember because my ears started to ring and Somehow before It even happened I knew that he would leave in a cop car. I was shaking as the officer that would take my dad away neared and my dad complied with everything he said and he pointed out the seatbelts we weren't wearing and the expired tags.

Dad had my sister call my mom she was freaking out it was our worst fear coming true she told my sister to start crying because that way they wouldn't search the car. My sister didn't have to be told twice she started crying her fucking eyes out saying my mom told me to as well but I refused to knowing it would make it harder for my dad.Mexican men are very prideful and him being arrested in front of his kids? It fucking destroyed him I know it did and that is something he will never forgive himself for even if wasn't his fault. He told us not to cry and that everything was okay but we both knew that wasn't true. I reassured him that I wasn't gonna cry and that I knew everything was okay but I had to steady my voice and keep myself from crying. I was digging my nails so hard into my hand that I was bleeding and I was biting the inside of my check so hard that hours later I could feel where my I had bitten it. My world started crashing down and that was only the beginning.I should have fucking hugged him and I would have if I knew that It would be nearly 2 and more fucking years possibly before I would get to see him even now I'm not sure how much longer it'll be.

He said he loved us and I told him I loved him too I can't quite remember if My sister said it back I'm sure she did because she sobbed out a few words. He chugged a water bottle and let it fall to the floor before putting his hands back on the steering wheel he made me promise I would stay strong because My mom and family needed me to.I swore that I would and that I would start helping around the house more that held 13 people including me but not including him But I can get to that in a second. I watched as he was put in hand cuffs And taken to another police car where he was taken away from us. The last time I would see him that wasn't through glass or a computer screen.

I had to take the phone because Abbie was crying her eyes out and hiccuping so hard. We were told that my cousin and his girlfriend were on the way when the police officer who had stayed said that their was a DHS Just down the road and my heart sank he was really trying to take us away from our family too? I wanted to scream and tell him to fuck off he had done enough but I knew that I would be detained and brought to DHS right away or worse So all I could do was tell him that our ride was on the way. I remember my cousins girlfriend pulled up and made sure we were okay We got in the car and we just replayed what happened we drove over to my cousin who had been dropped off across the lot we were at because he had well bad luck with the law and he would have been taken as well.

We went to the store before going home and they asked me If I wanted anything and I wanted food Fuck I wanted to eat my feelings but I declined because I didn't want their fucking pity on any other day they wouldn't have offered why should that day have been different? We got home and my mom was so upset and my sister didn't sit with us at dinner. My aunt made some stupid fucking comment that upset me but I bit my tongue and held back tears god I just wanted to keep the peace long enough for them to help bring my dad home.