Unloved

UNSPOKEN

To burn with desire and keep quiet about it is a great pain we inflict ourselves.

I wanted to lay down by your side as you sleep
To wrap my hands around you like you're mine to keep
No sex, to just cuddle in the most innocent sense
But I lack the courage and I was a mess
Your path was planned
And I never was in your plans
I was gawky and hopelessly boring
And you are gorgeous and forever fascinating
So every night I collapse on my bed
Thinking if people were weed, I'd be shwag and you'd be loud

I thought of all who have tried to tie you down but failed
So I kept all my feelings veiled
I resisted showing you songs and poems I'd written
For too much truth can ruin a thing
And If that meant you wasn't mine
I'm sure I'd be fine
I'd be the one you could return to
Without recrimination or interview
So I did not try to win you
I contented myself playing a beautiful game
To run and answer for your smile that came
But there was a part of me that wanted more
And there was that part that's always a moron

Since I stopped giving a fuck
I never felt pain or truly hurt
Until I loved you to such a great extent
To convinced myself my love was spent
I thought I couldn't have you
I knew I couldn't have you

Though these words may never find you, I hope you know that I think of you everyday ...

And I hope you find happiness.