Unloved

RECONCILIATION

Sad part is I will continue to love you without you for much longer than I loved you when I knew you.

Its strange but the amount of love you feel for someone and the impact they have on us as a person is not relative to the amount of time you know them.

Reminds me of:

The times when my desire for you landed me in trouble
It felt good so I wouldn't grumble
Had it not been sanctioned by mutual consent
I'd be in an asylum or prison but content.

All these years I've had a story in my mind
A story like a gem never mined
A story of us that never existed
Of how my love was wrong and twisted
And for this story, I've kept you hung
On the wall in a frame of nostalgic songs.

I get angry at my heart for putting me in this hell.
The anger always passed and sometimes I yell
But I never regretted loving you
And if I go to my grave never kissing or touching you
I'd still not think its wasted love
For I do not expect a requited love
It is as it is
What I give, I give free.
You owe me nothing in return;
Not Obligation,
Not Love,
Not Friendship or Concern

I was glad that if it wasn't me you wanted, it was going to be someone else who truly deserved you.

At least thats what I tell myself.