fake love [j.jk x bts]

fake

Jimin seemed shocked

"Yes"

I smiled and hugged him

Me jimin and taehyung were there only single ones

Taehyung found his ex. He broke up with him because he was a trainee. She only wanted him to be happy.

They got back together.

Then me and jimin were single.

I liked jimin for a while. Jimin also liked me.

Before they abused me they were family. People i loved. They wouldn't even hurt a fly.

Now I'm just a toy. A punching bag. A stress reliever.

We entered the dorm. Everyone was drunk. Again.

I rushed to my room. It was shared with heosok hyung.

Heosok still sleeps here sometimes. He hurts me the most. Hes an ass.

Yoongi hurts me mentally. But that's just yoongi.

Yoongi listens to my problems. He helps me. He helps me battle with depression. Hes like jimin just ruder.

Jimin is a angel. He doesn't suffer from depression. He still tries to help he. It's just useless.

Im leaving this earth soon. I don't want to be alive.

I have a journal i right in everyday. At first it was just fun and cute. Like this page right here.

December 30 2013
Today is tae taes birthday!! I really want to give him my present. Its a painting i made of him. Its really pretty. At the party we sang happy birthday and handed our gifts. Tae cried when i gave him my present. I don't like seeing my members cry. I love you tae tae.

This is how they look like now.

June 8 2017
Fuck my life. We played this game. Who we want dead. Everyone pointed at me. Tae said for his brithday he wants me dead. I guess I'll accomplish it. And im dying so its a win win. The voices in my head grow louder and louder. Im starting to wonder if there the truth. I haven't ate in over 3 months. I can't. Jin hyung said i make him loose his appetite everytime i eat. Jimin and suga brings me food from time to time. I throw it out the window. I can't eat. I'll get fat. I weight 42 kg. People tell me i should gain weight. I can't. Im to fat. My goal is 38 kg. 4kg more and im happy.

Huge change. I will kill myself this December.

Its now October 31 2017. 2 months left.