things started to be beautifully bloom since you came
my cheeks never been red ,
heated uncontrollably
your existence just made my day
heart pounding like crazy
i shouldn't be there ,
to watch you smile ,
to watch you giggle ,
god you're so gorgeous
my palm drippin' sweats ,
you came all of the sudden ,
but things started to get wild
you smiled to someone new
you talk to someone else
you're texting with someone else ,
your heart flew to someone else
but not me .
it hurts ,
but i better left things unsaid
un-see
uncalled .
i realizes the pain of kissing the air of someones ,
the numb on my face realizing everythings
i felt betrayed or not so—
theres a thousand thoughts , maybe a lots
i'm trying to avoid everythings
lay in my cold bed
staring at the ceiling
tears bridges my faces
hand tightly pressing through my chest
as the other hands when pulling my hair
god knows how hurtful it is
how pathetic i am
as i went dizzy
i fell asleep
woken up with the sounds of thunder
on a sunny days
there comes the gloomy
the dark
my face covered in tears that been dried out overnight
rushing to the bathroom to wash my face
having a meeting with someones in five
exhaling all the burden i kept
letting out the emotion i dealt
mask up my pain
"what a better start of the day"
—[ 4:08pm ] i miss the feelings
