I lay awake
hoping it's just a dream
praying this isn't me
for who i've become I'm not proud of.
This shadow walking by
impersonating me
wherever i go
whatever i do
I can't escape
this sad place
with wrinkled time
and unexcused memories
for this head lay on a pillow softened by
shredded souls
and sweaty palms
secured by the locks of grace
and hope
and faith.
Deceived by the ones who have done this to me.
Trapping me in an unedifying pit
of misery
and blood.
Blood of the broken and sinful.
Dead upon the shattered soil we walk on.
Unknown by the givers and the takers.
Unwanted by the families and the friends.
Unloved by everyone
and
yourself.
The end rises near
invisible
broken luck.
blooming with needingness
hiding behind something your not.
Powerful words but weak minds.
Conjuring the ones who need to come back
come back to see what we've become.
Eating away at everything we got.
Noticing the gaps in our cycles,
little
by
little.
Wanting to become something but not wanting to try.
Rules of believing whats not true.
Sparing every last breath.
Not many more.
Too much space.
Too little time.
Writing
reading
knowing
learning.
Nothing prepared us for this.
A new light in the sea of darkness and lost minds.
Trying to get out,
you can't wake up from your nightmare.
Not because your dead but because it's your life.
The blaze of thunder and noise,
up roaring your intentions and thoughts.
Not knowing they can get out.
Downing the chances,
no risks.
Mistakes making you cringe as your beat slows down.
As the world slows down.
Silence.
Darkness.
Peace.
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PoetryMany will relate, and that's what saddens me the most♥ -Not a copy, original story-