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I get the feeling of being u s e d;
The feeling of being only there and nothing else.
I feel like I have been only loved for the fact that I had what they needed;
And that everything else was just for show.
Like it wasn't even important, like the little things about me were just a mere image of nothingness.
I felt like I didn't belong, and that I was only pretending to feel like I was a part of something.
In reality, I'm just a person, a person who doesn't mean anything to anyone.
And in all honesty, it's not okay. I'm not fine. I'm hurt. Believe it or not, I have feelings. I feel something. These emotions your murdering, only had feelings for you;
But you didn't acknowledge that. You were oblivious. You just sat there and acted. You sat there and you pretended not to notice. It was like it was revenge on me for having feelings for you.
In the end, I see now that everything is useless and everything that I ever put my heart into was just thoughtless.
In the end, I can see that I can't put any heart into anything without getting hurt.
I'm tired of appearing thoughtless, so I'll just appear heartless.
I'm done with everything, and I'm done with everyone.
They all are half-assed and it sickens me to the core. It makes me bitter and upset.
I'm sad, but you won't care.
I want to die, but you won't care.
I wish I could die, but I can't.
I wish you cared, but you never will.
It turned out to be a
beautiful lie,
but the feelings of the
ugly truth.
