Negan and Dinah

PART ONE

It had been a week since you first arrived to this sanctuary. A group of ten of you were taken in and introduced to Negan, so far it wasn't so bad. Besides the fact that you were surrounded by people that weren't very much like you, you couldn't really complain about what you knew so far. Negan seemed like a decent man to you, gave you all shelter and food and although he was intimidating...he didn't seem all that bad.
For the past two nights outside your bedroom you could hear most of the adults together having drinks. Not being a drinker, you left yourself out of it but tonight you figured why the hell not? Being there with them didn't mean you had to drink with them.
"Look who's joining us." Negan was in the middle of laugher with some of the men and women when he noticed you grab a chair by the table.
"Finally decided to come out of your little hole huh?" He teased as you smiled and pulled the shall you had around you close and sitting just a few feet away from him. Negan couldn't help but take notice how modest your style was next to most of the women there. He thought it was nice being that most of the women there threw themselves at him only because they wanted something from him. Being the kind of man he was, he didn't complain but it was still refreshing for him to see something different.
"You want one?" One of the men beside you leaned in offering you a beer. Not knowing Negan was watching, you shook your head politely and smiled.
"Come on, pretty lady. Don't be afraid to have a drink with us now, we don't bite." Negan was slouched comfortably in his chair, beer in hand, everyone had a drink beside them.
"No it's fine. I just don't drink." You adjusted yourself a bit uncomfortably in your seat feeling everyone's eyes strangely on you.
"You don't drink?" Negan sat up leaning forward facing you.
"How do you not drink?!" One of the girls who sat on Simons lap asked curiously.
"What else is there to do during times like this?" Yelled another.
"Fuck." Simon muttered low making the group break out into laughter except for you.
"Well ok.." you whispered to yourself raising your brows with flushed cheeks. People speaking so vulgar about sex wasn't something you were used to.
"Well shit, I can't argue with you there." Negan laughed before taking another sip of his beer.
Your hands on your knees, Negan noticed the slight squeeze you gave them with the corner of his eye.
"Alright alright, settle down assholes." Negan spoke with a smirk as he looked over at you.
"I gotta say, Dinah..I respect that you don't drink but excuse my French...I gotta ask, why the fuck not?"
"It's not how I was raised. I came from a strict Christian family and there was just certain things they did not allow. And I just..I stuck with it."
"Mmm.." Negan crossed one leg over the other leaning back as he listened to what you said.
A sudden silence made you look down awkwardly, you usually was not one to shy away about how you were but Negan was looking at you as if he was staring into your very soul.
"Well it's getting late." The men and women began to stand up throwing out their empty bottles of beer in a bag.
"Yeah tonight was fun. Hopefully we can all do this again this week-"
"As long as things run smoothly here. Then yes." Negan interrupted looking over at the young man with almost a threatening glare that you quickly brushed off.
"Well, I better get going too. Nice little talk we had." You sighed as you stood up and fixed your dress.
"Mind if I walk with you?"
Negan caught you off guard but you couldn't say no. With a simple nod you gave him, he stood up with a grin taking a sudden interest at the modest young woman he had in his sanctuary.
"After you, sweetheart." Negan moved aside allowing you to walk before him, giving the chance to do exactly what he wanted to do...letting his eyes wander on your backside.
You had not really spoken to him personally since you arrived, it was strange but you didn't show him you felt strange. You stood straight, head held high and shoulders back. 

"So you're a Christian huh?"
"Mhm."
"So you don't sin?" Negan looked over at you curiously as the two of you slowly walked to your door.
"I'm not perfect but I try to follow what God would want me to do."
"I would be a shitty Christian."
You couldn't help but laugh at his words, especially with the humor in his voice.
"Oh please, none of us are perfect. I'm sure you're not all that bad." Little did you know the dark hidden secrets Negan hid behind his charming smile.
Stopping at your door and turning to face Negan he looked down and noticed the golden necklace you had on. A cross lay right above your chest, something you always kept close to your heart. He didn't say a word about it before looking up at you and squinting his eyes, leaning in close.
"I might get slapped for even mentioning this but I've never been one to shy away from conversation." He smirked speaking low to you.
"You've never had a man have you?" His expression filled with excitement and curiosity all in one. He knew the answer to this. Your cheeks burned from embarrassment at his very upfront question.
"No." You shook your head as you looked up at him through innocent eyes that sent a tingly sensation through him.
"How old are you, darling?"
"Twenty-four." You licked your lips anxiously making it hard for him to not look at the soft pink full lips you had.
"Let me ask you something, sweetheart. You ever been curious to know what a man feels like?" 
Was this man seriously trying to come on to you?
"Are you..are you asking me if I want to have sex?"
"Depends-" he grinned looking down at your body.
"Do you want to?"
Never in your life had you even thought about having sex, it being such a taboo subject at home, never truly crossed your mind. You didn't socialize much, didn't learn about sex at all and well you grew used to the lifestyle. This was the first time it was presented as an offer to you, usually you would've said no without thinking, but something made you wonder for just a tiny second what it was like. The thought scared you and quickly, you shook your head.
"No..no I..I have to go to bed now. Goodnight." You ran in closing the door in Negans face leaving him to stand there with a little laugh to himself.
"Ohh...women." As he turned one of the women ran up to him walking away with him back to where he stayed but, as he walked away he couldn't help but look back at your bedroom door.
  Laying in bed, you stared up at the ceiling replaying over and over the question Negan asked you. Replaying the look in his eyes, the sound of his voice. Why the hell was it so hard to forget about? You didn't understand the feeling you were getting about it, it was almost like a tingly sensation.
"Oh gosh..get over it Dinah." You whispered to yourself before closing your eyes and falling to sleep.