Crushing On You?

Chapter 9- Regret And Depression

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CALUM'S P.O.V

'You're a lost cause' The harsh words repeated in my brain.

'Lost Cause' That is what I am.

I treat women badly, I treat my mates badly, and I treat my family badly. Hell I even treat myself badly, smoking 2 packs a day, I don't think that does much good for me.

Why did I think I would have a chance with her, ever since the moment I met her at lunch break, I knew that she wouldn't like me, she's a pretty and gorgeous girl and deserves someone who doesn't put deadly smoke into their system every single hour of the day.

I'm stupid for thinking that I would have a chance with a perfect girl who tries her best in every subject and doesn't complain or talk back rudely to anyone.... Except me.

I say to myself, she only spoke rudely to you, your the first one she spoken rudely to, who she's talked back to. Your the nobody.

There's no way, not even in a parallel universe that she'd go out with you, she's a first class citizen and your a second class citizen, a failure, a mess. I say to myself.

I look up and see Emily taking deep breathes and walking slowly around her room. I look down from her window and sigh thinking of how thick I was, then looking back up to take another look of the beautiful, perfect girl who I will and never be able to see again.

She's not there, she isn't in her room, I sigh as I realise, that she never wants to see me again.

I turn on my heel and start to walk away from Emily's house, not looking back as that would make me feel worse, walking quickly towards the road and onto the foot path towards my house.

The long walk between Emily's house and my house gave me a lot to think about, how was I going to make her like me, or were we not meant to be together?

Because I was so deep in thought I almost kept walking until my mum yelled out my name.

"Calum, honey, I've been waiting for you, you have friends over!" My mum says. I stop and walk towards the door of my house.

"Yo, Calum! Where you been buddy? We've been lookin' all over for you?" My good mate Luke exclaims.

I shrug and sit down on the couch, my friends Michael, Luke and Ashton follow in my actions and sit across the room on another chair.

"Well! You didn't answer my question!" Luke yells.

"I- I, was in detention," Yes that works.

"Good on you! What for?" Michael says.

"Oh you know, biology frogs in the girls bathroom," I shrug, even though it's not true. I've purposely been avoiding my friends so I could focus on things more important.

"Dude, you disappeared after lunch, right after we sent you to burn the new nerd girl's word page thing," Ashton says.

"Oh I was in the library, trying to find new ways to prank nerds, you know, to get a quiet place to try work and plan it out," I say casually, lying again.

"Dude, that's awesome, can you show us any?" Ashton says smirking.

I shake my head. "No that would give away the great surprise and make it less funny!" I reply to Ashton's question.

"Well that's awesome mate, but we gotta egg William Turner's house and car, you wanna come?" Luke asks me.

"Nah you go ahead and egg the principal's property, I've had a busy day, Have fun and get him good!" I smile and open the front door, letting them out.

Finally, I'm alone!

Actually, now that I'm alone and don't have my mates surrounding me with questions from my recent disappearance, the thoughts from earlier about Emily are starting to cloud my head again.

'Lost Cause' The words repeated over and over in my head, making me regret going to her house and seeing her.

"Calum, honey? Would you like something to eat, it's 6:00? I can make you some homemade pizza?" My mum asks as she comes into my room.

"Um, no thanks. I'm not hungry," I reply.

My mum continues to walk into my room, and sits on my bed.

"Honey, are you alright, are you in depression?" My mum says.

I nod and hug my mum, tears starting to flow slowly down my face. My mum is shocked at first then wraps her arms around my shaking body.

"Sh, sh. It's okay. Don't worry. Just tell me one thing, Can we have more of this, I have no idea what happened to you, I feel like I have lost you and I love you Cal, so please stay a good boy and never change from this moment right now, I love you," My mum whispers, not pushing any answers out of me.

"When your ready to speak to me, please come and talk to me, I want you to know that I'm always here for you to trust and talk to," My loving mum continues.

"i know. I love you too," at this moment we are both crying soft tears.

My mum gets up and wipes a tear from my face with her thumb. "I'll go and make you a small pizza, so I know that your still eating," My mum smiles and turns around.

"Mum!" She turns around and looks hopeful. "Thank you!" I continue. She smiles at me and blows a kiss towards me before turning around again and walking out the door.

'Stay as a good boy' My mothers words repeat, 'Good Boy' ! That's it, I know how I might have a chance with Emily!

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update!! sorry it got a bit cheesy at the end but I thought it was sweet, so boo you if you didn't like that part.

anyway.

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-Brooke212