JeanxReader: If Only Love Was Enough

Chapter: 1

I've always been a bit tougher than the others my age. But I guess that's what comes with spending half your life in the underground...

When I was a child I grew up on the streets under the interior. I fought for my life in every opportunity I could get, even if that meant stealing from those of whom seemed more fortunate. Then there came a time when I didn't want to live but in the same respect I didn't want to die.

Then one day I was shoved to the ground by a man for stealing his bread. We were all so hungry and vulnerable. But when I got up and showed him my dirt covered face, he only laughed. He took the bread and chucked it as far as he could, away from me. It was despicable. At 11 years old my (e/c) piercing eyes tore this man's soul apart. I lunged at him with all I had and knocked over a near by cart. From which caused a scene. A lady ran out of her second story home, down her stairs and at us. But behind her were two men in forest green capes and the wings of freedom emblem pasted on the back. One of them with the blackest hair I've ever seen went, "tch, there goes our stakeout."

I later came to find out that man who had been sparring with was a wanted man in the above ground world, a big time tax evader. It still didn't make sense. This seemed more like a military police job. Not a Scouting regiment task.

Anyways, it didn't take long for the black haired man to look at me and say "we're taking this one with us too." And that was how I earned my one way ticket into the above ground world I'd soon call home. Only to find out it was more messed up than the underground.

Soon after I was placed in an orphanage in Trost, the newspaper came out. "TITANS, TITANS! IN SHIGANSHINA!! SOME WARN WALL MARIA IS COMPLETELY UNINHABITABLE!"

Is that so, I thought. It may be shit in the underground but on god at least I won't be eaten alive. I rolled my eyes which were still not use to the sunlight.

5 years later...

Honestly I didn't know what I was doing with my life. It was hectic. I felt strong but somehow so helpless. I mean I don't think anyone would even walk near me when I was in my "mood." But don't think I didn't have friends, I did. Some good ones too. A girl named Val and a boy named Thomas. Thomas was dead set on joining the cadet corps this year, and I thought maybe I'd join him. But I still didn't know. Val on the other hand, there was no way in hell anyone would catch her even near the flyers they hung up throughout the city. "Join the 104th. Fight for Something."

Me and Val talked a lot about the future, Thomas too, but he didn't care too much to entertain the thought. Val wanted a safe life inside the walls. She swore the first chance she got she was moving to Wall Sina.

I always wanted to know more about the world. In fact, you could probably say I was desperate. I hated being caged in, but I understood and respected Val's choice. She wasn't a coward, she just didn't want to waste her life on something that seemed like a useless cause.

1 month later...

When time came around to register for the corps, Thomas was practically begging me to go. "Come on (y/n) you're strong, and what else do you have planned for your life?"

"I don't know Thomas, maybe settle down, not become Titan chow, but while I'm entertaining the thought, you think I'd be good with BBQ sauce?"

"Sure, whatever." He replied and scribbled his name down onto the recruitment sheet. Then with a burst of adrenaline, I too wrote my name.