to a dead boy

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to zayn;

is this is what dying feels like?

to zayn;

because i feel like im dying.

to zayn;

i feel like im drowning, the waters filling up my lungs. i feel like im being strangled, like i cant breath. i feel like im falling, my heart plunging downward, my bloods rushing.

to zayn;

i miss you so much.

to zayn;

i kept calling your voice mail, just to hear your beautiful voice.

to zayn;

i spent eight hours today, watching youtube videos of you zayn. you on the stairs, to you preforming stadiums.

to zayn;

i watched some of your little funny moments videos as well. i laughed zayn. i cried and i laughed and i -

to zayn;

to put it shortly, i have never experienced this pain before.

to zayn;

you know how they ask you to rate your pain from 1-10.

to zayn;

this pain breaks that scale.

to zayn;

my pain is infinite.