just random rants and things

trying to write poetry

Alright, so basically I have just been reading AlexandraLux9274
Books and she has one called late-night rambles and it's basically a bunch of poems that she has written and there all really good. I really like poetry and wanted to try writing some even though I have realized I am not very good at it, but I guess I just need to do it more.
  Life has just been really complicated recently, a lot of stuff involving me deciding on school options and I just am under a lot of pressure about that along with other things.
So heres the poem I wrote about all the stress, and if you don't want to read anything depressing than I recommend to not read this.

                                                     Right

    
I have finally achieved what I have longed for
                          
It finally had arrived

I thought that everything would just be so perfect,

So why doesn't it feel right?

Did I make the right decision?

Do I do what is right?

I need to know these answers

Was I being selfish, and now I suffer the consequences?

I don't know what to do anymore

I dont know what is right!!!

Everything is just a battle,
All between what I know and don't

The colors of these answers,
Right,
Wrong,

They have all been washed away,
Faded and no longer exist

I've tried to climb out of this area,
But why does it feel like its never ending?

What do I need to do?

Please someone tell me I'm loosing hope

I just want to make things better,
But how can I do that if I'm alone?
   
I don't know what is right

I know I didn't write this in proper poetry form, but I have never written a poem before and idk if I will write more.
I know this is kind of depressing, and im just saying I'm not depressed, so no one has to worry about me. It's just that a lot of depressing things have happend recently.

Anyways I hope you all have a good day/night and I will try to write about how I got into kpop since it's the weekend and I have more time.
You all are amazing ❤