i want to escape
to exist, to live, to not hide, to not please
to not be afraid
but i also don't want to escape
because i am afraid
i am
afraid of consequences
that won't come
afraid of rejection
when others wouldn't
even think about rejecting me
i am afraid to take the step
to get out of my comfort zone
to actually do something
instead of just thinking
and thinking
but i can't help
but feel safe
in my own mind
and not being ready to escape
yet
i hope that is okay
and i believe one day
i will just be fine
