Rough Lovin

Chapter one

It wasn't easy fitting in somewhere new but it's even harder when you are gay. i moved to a new town when i was just starting middle school and i already knew i was different from other boys. it is the reason why we moved in the first place, but my parents say it is because of my mom's job. even my sister won't admit that the move is because of me liking other boys. my parents barely look me in the eye now and forget them looking in my direction when they are talking to me.
"you new?" asked a boy that looked like a lot of trouble
"yeah."
"the front office in on the other side of the building." laughed the boy
"thanks."
was all i said before i took off to find the front office, which i have been looking for since i was dropped off. i wasn't expecting him to help me since i knew that in the future he more than likely would be one of the students picking on me.
"i can show you." he offered
"it's fine, i will find it." i said as i kept walking
"your a rebel right?" asked the boy
"no, i am gay and most people keep clear of me." i said
he just laughed like i was telling a joke, if only he knew the truth. he ended up being my best friend until high school when he moved away. at first we kept in touch but slowly we drifted apart.
~ Four years later ~
i got accepted into a great college and i am paying for my own college fees. why? well my parents have pretty much kicked me out of the family because i wouldn't stop being gay. they couldn't accept me for me and i am fine since my sister accepts me. we are roommates. we both are attending the same college but she is a year ahead of me.
"have your friends shown up yet? if they don't hurry we are going to be up all night as they fight over the rooms." whinned my sister
"chill out gale, they said they would be here at three and it is only one." i laughed
"have our parents called for their scheduled call of shame?" asked Gale
our parents like to call us and try to shame us both, since i am gay and i shouldn't be as they see. but they shame Gale too because she supports me and my lifestyle and that i am rubbing off on her to much. you see Gale is Bisexual and they blame me for that!
we both have tried not to be who we really are for them but we both ended up depressed and i have almost tried to kill myself. that was both mine and Gale's wake up call, which is why we don't depend on our parents. since we have left them we have not been depressed or have tried to harm ourselves. we also met my friends who just so happen to be a strange group of gays, bisexuals, and straight guys and girls. there is a total of ten of us if you count me and Gale.
"Gale! we are roommates!" called haylee
"Damn it! i told you we can't room together because of your crazy girlfriend!" snapped Gale
Haylee is part ninja or something because we are never aware of when she shows up and she is one of our gays. now her girlfriend doesn't like any of us and always tries to get Haylee to stop hanging out with us. she is a crazy control freak and she can't handle that she can't control Haylee.
"she dumped me yesturday when i told her we were going to be living together." said Haylee
"are you ok?" both Gale and i asked together
"yeah, i knew it was coming when i wouldn't do as she told me anymore." said Haylee
"we will go out to the club after the rest show up." said Gale
"so can we be roommates?" asked Haylee
i find it funny because my sister has been in love with Haylee for a long time but won't say anything. because Haylee was already dating her ex when we first met her. but now that she was single was a great chance for her but knowing her she would say that it wasn't time. That Haylee would need to greive first before she can move on.
"oliver and pat will be here soon. but the others said that they will be late." said Haylee
"fine, we can be roommates but don't you dare steal my socks!" snapped Gale
Haylee enjoys taking other's socks so she can experiment with them. the end results of those experiments is us having to buy new socks and having to hid them.
"i promise! i bought a huge box of socks so that i don't take anyone else." laughed Haylee
when i said earlier that we are rooming together i meant that all ten of us are and we have a huge place because of it. you see some of us have jobs and they pay pretty well but the rest of us have part time jobs so we have to have at least two or more. i am a part timer at a club and that just so happens to be the place that everyone always wants to go too.
"i heard there is a guy at the college that is very popular, he is said to be very hot but he keeps to himself." said haylee
"really?" i asked
"yup, i think he is your type but then again you and Gale have the same type." joked Haylee
"shut up!" snapped both Gale and me
no we aren't twins but we do have twin moments and it makes the others laugh. it is also the reason they enjoy picking on us so much.
~~
"You work here? as what?" asked Gale
"i'm a waiter and sometimes i help with the cleaning." i said
i could tell that my friends didn't believe me but they did once one of the dancers came up to me.
"Dan, can you help Tris? he spilled some of the props and he can't remember how they go." asked Lin
"sure, can you please make sure none of dancers go after my friends? i would hate not being able to work here because of something happening." i said
"promise!" laughed Lin
when i asked that i meant it and Lin knew it since some of the dancers liked to offer favors to some club goers. knowing my friends they would more than likely take it the wrong way. so Lin would more than likely end up texting every dancer a warning about my friends being a no go type. yes, lin is one of the dancers that offers favors.
"Tris? what happened?" i asked
"sorry Dan. i saw someone i didn't want to see and ended up knocking this all over." said tris
i noticed he kept his back to the crowd, but why was a mystery.
"do you need me to distract whoever it is? no, you can just go to the back and i will get this." i said
"thanks dan." said Tris before he bolted for the back
"excuse me?" said a male voice
i looked up to see a very sexy guy standing over me. he was so hot that i had some naughty thoughts pop into my head.
"yes?" i asked
"do you need help? i saw that guy knock it all over and now he left you to take care of it all." said the guy
"i offered to take care of it. he is new and doesn't know how to place the props in the right place." i said
"oh, you look familiar. have we met before?" asked the guy
"doubt it. but i agree you do look familiar." i laughed
"what's your name?" he asked
"Daniel but my friends and co-workers call me Dan." said
"Daniel Gilmore?" he asked
i was so shocked he knew my last name without me saying it!
"how?" i asked confused
"it's me! Shawn O'Hare." said Shawn
the minute he said his name so many memories came back to me. he was the boy from middle school that moved away before high school started. he was my first love but i never told him.
"wow, how have you been?" i asked
"good. my god it has been so long since we have seen each other. what have you been up too?" he asked
we talked for awhile as i fixed up the props for the dancers. we keep them next to the stage so that we can have them in reach. sadly customers enjoy taking some of the props too. the back isn't big enough for the props to be back there too so we have to keep it this way. that is also one of the reason i have this job because i can recreate the props for the dancers.
"so you work here?" Shawn asked
"yeah, it pays well. plus i have become good friends with most of the staff." i laughed
"so where have you been staying?" he asked
"i just moved into a place with my friends. you?" i asked
"i have mine own place, but my girlfriend is mad that i won't let her move in with me." laughed Shawn
"you have a girlfriend?" i asked
it hurt knowing that he was dating someone but knew that he wasn't gay like me. sure i had prayed for it but i knew it wasn't going to happen.
"yeah, what about you? anyone special?" he asked
"i like someone but i am single still." i said
i wasn't lying but i wasn't telling him that it was him i liked.
"really? why don't you tell her?" he asked
"they are seeing someone and i don't want to mess up a friendship." i said
"so it's one of your friends?"
"sort of, someone from my past but i don't intend on telling them."
"Dan! come on!" called Gale
"sorry." i said
i walked away before i lost my sense and did something that would get me into so much trouble.
"who is he?" asked Oliver
"old friend from my past." i said
"you like him." stated pat
"no, he was a good friend but i hate that we grew apart." i said
they realized i was trying to cut my feelings off before i ended up hurt.
"he was the guy i was talking about." said Haylee
"really?" asked Gale
"yup. he is so closed off to everyone on campus. from what i have heard he doesn't even have a girlfriend. there is a chance he is either gay or bisexual." said Haylee
"he has a girlfriend but i don't think they broadcast it to everyone on campus." i said
~~
my head felt like it was killing me! but not only my head, other parts of my body hurt! what the hell happened last night?
i didn't remember getting back to the apartment, let alone leaving the club. i knew i had a few drinks but i don't remember drinking anything too strong. last thing i remember was Shawn and his friends joining us at our table.
i didn't want to open my eyes or even move since i was hurting. but when i felt the bed move my eyes shot open but i regret it! it was like someone was stabbing my brain and pouring acid into my eyes! i groaned from the pain but i wasn't the only one groaning!
"who are you?" i asked
"shh...the devil is killing my brain." whispered my bed partner
"shawn?" i asked
"dan?" he asked
oh sweet monkey! did i sleep with Shawn?! he is going to kill me... wait! my butt hurts, so that means he fucked me!
"why are you here?" i asked
"it's my room. what do you last remember?" he asked
"you and your friends joining us at our table." i said
"nothing else?" he asked
"no, why?" i asked
by now we are both looking at each other but he has a guilty look on his face. i most likely look confused as hell and like i am in pain. everytime i moved i felt pain! how rough was he on me?
"Shawn? did you do something to me?" i asked
"sorry." he whispered
"did we really have sex? your straight!" i cried
"i don't know how to explain this." said Shawn
Screw this pain! i am not staying here another minute! his word made it clear that he was just experimenting with if he was into just girls or guys or both. i felt like a used piece of tissue and it hurt. knowing that i had deep feelings for him and he just was using me.
"where are you going?" he asked
"home." i stated
the moment i sat up i cried out in pain! this bitch must have had a great time to have me in this much pain. i was in tears as i was collecting my stuff and do the best i could to get my clothes on me.
"Dang it Dan, you can barely stand up! you don't have to leave." said Shawn trying to stop me
"don't touch me! i won't be used like some piece of tissue! i have feelings and i wanted to have my first time with someone who returned my feelings! not be used by someone who has a girlfriend!" i snapped
i didn't realize his room was on the second floor of his place. so when i tried to go down the stairs i ended up in a bad situation! my legs didn't take it very well since i was still hurting so they gave out and i ended up falling down the stairs. i remember Shawn screaming my name before i faded into darkness.
i woke up to the sound of beeping and i swear i wanted to break whatever it was! it was driving me crazy!
"Dan?" called my sister's voice
"Gale?" i called
"are you ok?" she asked
"what happened?" i asked
"you were over at Shawn's and the next thing i know he is calling me saying you fell down the stairs! what happened to you over there?" she asked
it then dawned on me that my eyes were open but i wasn't seeing anything! i must have voiced what i realized because she was screaming for a doctor.
~ a few hours later ~
"it will be temporary, he needs to rest and take his medication. i would give it a few weeks to a month before he gets his sight back." said the doctor
[i am aware that i have added a twisted surpise! just please keep reading.]
it shocked that i was blind because of falling down a flight of stairs. sure it could have been worse! i could be dead but i am still alive but i can't see for the time being.
"Shawn wanted to visit but from how he looked i told him i will ask you first." said Haylee
"no, he can't come in here." i said
"Dan, what happened over at his place?" asked Gale
"i can't right now." i said
my friends and sister had to leave for classes, but they told me that the school was giving me a pass since i had been put in the hospital. i was grateful for that but i knew that i was going to be behind in my classes. but knowing my friends they would take notes for me and have other people help take notes for me.
i was about to fall asleep when the nurse came into the room. well i thought it was a nurse that came in.
"yes?" i asked
"we need to apply the cream." said who i thought was a nurse
"cream? for what?" i asked
"you were rough with your sex partner and when you were admitted into the hospital there was some bleeding down there. so we have been applying medical cream for you while you were out." said the nurse
"oh." i said knowing good and well i was red in the face.
i felt the nurse lift the blanket up to my chest, but when he moved the gown my face felt like a furnance! i wasn't use to being exposed to strangers. and now i have to have one rub a medical cream on my asshole! can god please let the earth swallow me up right now!
~~
i didn't think he would believe i was a nurse but he did! i had to flirt with a nurse to let me do it since i was the one who hurt him down there. the only reason she agreed to it was because she was a fan of boy love as she said. aparently i don't look gay at first glance and neither does dan but when i told her why i wanted to do it she freaked out and said yes.
"are you ok? does it hurt?" i asked as i applied the cream
"no." whispered Dan
his face was so red, i wanted to tell him who i was but if he knew he would kill me! but i wanted to kill myself because i didn't know today was the last day they would be applying the cream.
"ah" moaned Dan
i was shocked that he was getting turned on! was dan really gay? if so why was he so mad at me?
"sorry." whispered dan
"do you want me to stop?" i asked
"aren't you done yet? it shouldn't take this long to apply that cream right?" asked dan
"it is suppose to be rubbed completely in until it is absorbed into the skin. i'm sorry." i said
"isn't it done?" asked dan
"almost." i said
i didn't want to say that i added a bit more than i should have. i just wanted to see if he was really ok. but his reaction to me applying the cream wasn't what i expected. an my reaction to him was a bigger shock! i was getting hard just from seeing him trying to get away from my touch and seeing he was getting hard as i kept rubbing him down there.
"i'm done." i said as i moved away from him
he movement told how embarassed he was being exposed to me but he didn't know it was me. so i didn't blame him but he was mad at me the last time i saw him so if he knew it was me that was here he wouldn't have let me get closer to him.
"when can i leave?" asked dan
"i will have someone come in and tell you." i said before i bolted from the room
as i was dropping the cream off with the nurse i told her that dan had some questions about when he can leave. i didn't expect my ex-girlfriend to show up at the moment though.
"Shawn? what are you doing here?" asked Selina
"visiting my boyfriend." i said without thinking
"your gay now?" asked Selina
"no, but i do like him." i said
she looked pissed off! knowing her she was more than likely going to see this as me trying to get even with her for breaking up with me. i didn't care since i knew that for a while we haven't had the same feelings as when we first started dating. i didn't get why but when i am with Dan i feel something i have never felt and just a few minutes ago i was so turned on!
"who is he?" she asked
"none of your business. anyways, can you please send me the bill for him?" i asked the nurse
"he's here? why?" asked selina
"i was a bit rough with him and he needed to see a doctor. now i know for next time not to be so rough. well unless he asks me to be." i laughed with the nurse.
i had no clue that Selina didn't care if i was gay or not but the fact that i was dating a guy after her was something she didn't like.
~
so now he's gay, and it's my fault. to make matters worse he was rough on the poor boy! that boy is going to hate me! i will have marcus go and see the boy, since he works here as a nurse. maybe we can make it up to him?
"Selina? why are you here?" asked Marcus
"i wanted to surprise you with a handmade lunch but i ran into Shawn and i feel so bad." i said
"what happened?" asked Marcus
"he is gay now and the guy he slept with is in the hospital because he was rough on the poor thing. that guy is going to hate me because of what Shawn did!" i cried
"It would have been Shawn's first time with a guy right? he may not have realized he was being to rough." said Marcus
"really? do you think you can help me give the guy a fruit basket? i won't feel better until i send a sorry basket to him." i said
i could tell that marcus found this funny but not in a mean way. he was very sweet and caring but he thought certain things i did was funny cute.
"sure, i am about to head to the nurse's station to see where my rounds are. do you know the guy's name?" asked Marcus
"no but i saw Shawn come out of room #313." i said
as we headed back to the nurse's station i noticed the nurse from earlier wasn't there. so i was happy because this would be easier to find out the guy's name.
"you said room #313? he's on my rounds. are you sure it was just because of rough sex he is in here?" asked Marcus
"that is what Shawn said. why?" i asked
"it seems he has been here for a few days, and it isn't just for rough sex. it seems he has a head ingury too." said marcus as we headed to the guy's room
"hello. how are we doing today?" asked Marcus as he entered the room
"i have barely slept since i woke up yesturday." answered the guy
"sorry, i won't take long. i am just taking your vitals and then i will be out of your hair. i noticed that it says you have already had the cream applied so we don't have to worry about that anymore. today was your last day for the cream since you seem to heal fast." said marcus as he took the guy's vitals
"really? i don't need that stuff anymore?" he asked
"yup, today is the last day. but i recommend you take your pills since that cream doesn't heal everything." said marcus
"i understand." said the guy
"so, has your family stopped by today?" asked Marcus
"are you my usual nurse?" asked the guy
"i have come in a few times but i am one of the main ones that looks after you. if it isn't me than lindsey and tina are the ones that look after you." said marcus
"then who was the guy that applied the cream?" asked the guy
"guy? it should have been tina to do it earlier. she must have been running behind on her load and had one of the other nurses help her out. this week has been crazy lately, so please don't hold it against us." said marcus
"excuse me. can i come in?" i asked
"sure, but who is there?" asked the guy
"oh, i am Selina. i wanted to see how you are doing?" i said
"do i know you?" asked the guy
"no, but um... Shawn is my ex and i heard you were in here because of a rough night with him. i know that it isn't easy on guys so i wanted to see if maybe you would like some fruit or something." i said
when i am nervous i tend to babble about random or my thoughts don't filter.
"He was Rough on me yes, but it was my first time. i like fruit and i can't see you." said the guy
"oh my gosh! i will go get a basket of fruit for you! are you allergic to anything?" i asked
"i have no allergies. my name is Daniel by the way." said the guy
"Daniel? as in Daniel Gilmore?" i asked
"yes? how do you know my name?" asked Daniel
"now i understand! he has always talked about you while we were dating." i laughed
"huh? i am so confused." said Daniel
"i think Shawn has been in love with you for a long time but was to scared to admit it." i said
"i think i need to rest, my head is hurting." said daniel
"sorry, i will go get that basket and you get some rest." i said
Marcus and i left the room to let him get some rest. if what i said causes him any problems i will kick myself!