One day, someone said he has left this place .
I asked every single person not believing what that person said but no one replied.
I tried to reach him, recall where he could be.
I tried to search for reasons why he had left to a place or why God took him away from me.
I tried to remember the last conversation we had, the last time we argued, the last time we loved and the last time we laughed and cried.
I tried to find out what was it or which of my actions and/or words that made hime go far away from me.
Was it the actual destiny or was it fate?
I looked at things that were stillleft to do, the places we planned to go but have never been, food we wanted to eat, and many more.
Such a little time we had.
So much of things still left to do,
So much of things still left to say,
Still so much of love that I have for him to give,
And dreams i wany to fulfill with him.
The sky at night with stars and moon, in the morning with its sunrise that i want to see with him , cold weather of the winter and the warmth of the sun.
I waited for him until its morning and even until a week.
Praying with the God to bring him back,
Cursing the God for the game he played
With that, the ground beneath my feet had shattered.
And I saw the time ticking and stopping forever at the same time.
The will the live faded and the urge to die remained.
So, I became someone who waited for a death so that i could meet him.
I forgot to breathe in,
My breath slowed its pace but tears flooded endlessly.
Gently, he came back..
I was only delayed.
Sorry, I made you worry and I gave you so much of pain.
But I love you and will always love you.
I am always by your side.
A breath of relief, some rays of happiness but a stream of tears.
My lord and my child is back to me.
From then, i saw we have only a handful of time that can end up at any moment.
It is the uncertainty and fear of the ending before we lived and loved our life that made me live my life to the fullest.
The fear and pain of losing someone made me live with even more love.
And we cherish the life we have.
Shining pebbles 🌸
